Secretly, Secretly; But Unable to Hide it (偷偷藏不住) by Zhu Yi (竹已)~ Chapter 77

Because of the dim light, his facial features are more impressive. He lowers his eyes and looks at her.

After he says those words.

Sang Zhi feels like her mind is slapped. She is startled. She could feel the pain on her lips. It somehow reminds her that everything happens now is real.

It’s not an imagination or dream.

Sang Zhi regains herself.

She feels someone is throwing a bomb toward her. She stops breathing for a moment, she somehow couldn’t believe what she heard.

Sang Zhi is puzzled: “Ah?”

With Ge Ge…

What?

Duan Jia Xu doesn’t repeat himself, he just looks at her. Sang Zhi couldn’t make out what Duan Jia Xu is thinking. He is smiling. He lifts up his hand and uses his finger to touch her lips.

It’s too shady, it shows a signal.

It lets Sang Zhi loses her sleepiness.

Though she knows that he always be shameless.

Yet Sang Zhi never thinks that he could be this shameless and calm.

How could!

He be so shameless and calm.

This old man, how could he be so frank and unrestrained.

Sang Zhi doesn’t know how to answer him.

Her heart keeps on beating so erratically. It’s so loud and clear. She thinks that Duan Jia Xu should be able to hear it too.

Is she nervous?

Why should she be nervous?

She wouldn’t.

Wouldn’t!

Sang Zhi prepares herself, she lifts her eyes and once again his smell enters her nose. She pulls his hand and says: “So you drank all of this to boost your courage?’

Her sentence breaks the romantic atmosphere.

Duan Jia Xu doesn’t expect her to say those words, he is startled for a while before he laughs. He looks happy.

Sang Zhi suddenly remembers why she is out of the bedroom.

Oh.

She was thirsty.

She came out to have a drink.

If this didn’t happen, she should have finish her water and return to the bed to sleep.

Duan Jia Xu smiles and takes back his hands. He asks her: “Why are you awake so suddenly?”

Sang Zhi glances at him and says with a low voice: “Thirsty, I got up to have a drink.”

Duan Jia Xu “Em”. He carries her up like he is carrying a little kid. He takes her to the kitchen and places her at the kitchen counter. He then goes to the fridge to take a bottle of water. He opens it and gives it to her.

Sang Zhi takes it and drinks it. She asks: “Why are you drinking?”

“I am not in a good mood.”

“Why?”

Duan Jia Xu smiles: “I feel that I’m not good toward you.”

Sang Zhi swallows the water inside her mouth and says: “Which part of you are not good toward me?”

He doesn’t explain to her and just stands near the kitchen counter. He watches her silently.

Sang Zhi: “Are you drunk?”

Duan Jia Xu laughs: “No.”

“Then why are you saying strange things?” Sang Zhi puts down the bottle and leans closer to look at him on the eyes. “Is there any other reason?”

“no.”

“But I don’t…..” Sang Zhi stops and asks: “Is it because my words today?”

Duan Jia Xu says nothing and just wipes her wet lips..

She doesn’t expect that her words would affect his mood. Sang Zhi explains quickly: “My words are not for blaming you, I just want to tell you. You might not know about it. Moreover I was young too that moment.”

“….”

“No matter it’s in the past or now, you always treat me well.”

Duan Jia Xu lowers her head and starts to kiss her again.

Sang Zhi raises her neck and accepts his kiss. This time his kiss is gentler and softer. Her eyes are open, she watches his appearance.

She just realizes.

He never drinks, yet because of her, he breaks his principle.

“Sang Zhi.” Duan Jia Xu lets her go and holds her face. He says hoarsely: “I love you.”

Indeed he has considered.

If it’s not me, would you meet a better person? If everyone opposes and disapproves, is it mean that I don’t deserve you?

He has considered whether Sang Zhi would regret. Would she regret be together with him? Would she persist to be together with him though her parents disapprove?

Wouldn’t she feel anxious?

But because of her, he doesn’t scare of any other external force. He tries hard to let go of his sense of inferiority. Because of her, he feels that in this world, only he deserves her, he wants to be with her.

Duan Jia Xu lowers his voice and says on her ear.

“I wouldn’t let you regret.”

—–

Sang Zhi blinks. She couldn’t describe her feeling that time. She hugs his neck and buries her face on his chest.

Duan Jia Xu kisses her ear and says gently: “Do you want to drink more?”

Sang Zhi shakes her head.

“Then let’s sleep.” Duan Jia Xu hugs her again and takes her to the master bedroom.

Looking at this, Sang Zhi lifts up her head and pursues her lips: “Didn’t you say before….”

“Em?”

His body is hot, Sang Zhi could feel the hotness from his body. She blushes and couldn’t say it clearly: “It’s……”

Duan Jia Xu responds and looks at her, he laughs: “I just scared you off.”

“Oh.”

Duan Jia Xu wants to open the door, then he just hears the person in his embrace says: “Yet I didn’t get scared.”

“….”

She holds his clothes tighter. This time Sang Zhi says clearly yet nervously. “I don’t say no.”

He pauses.

Duan Jia Xu’s breath turns heavy, it sprays to her neck. He closes her eyes and wants to take his rationality.

“Do you know what are you saying?”

Sang Zhi feels that every part of her touches by him is turning so hot. She tries to control her shivering and pretends ot be calm. “I am not a Xiao Hai anymore…”

Without waiting for her to finish, Duan Jia Xu just raises up his head and kisses her lips.

She couldn’t finish her words, Sang Zhi’s eyes are open. Because she doesn’t know what to do, her body turns stiff. Because of his action, she unconsciously just shrinks back.

Her action is careful and timid, she responds to him choppily.

Sang Zhi feels herself is floating, she feels insecure and could only depend on the man in front of her.

It’s odd and novel for her.

Sang Zhi pants an shivers. She says: “Let’s go, let’s go back to the bedroom.”

Duan Jia Xu stops, he laughs. Then he just takes her back to his bedroom .

The light in the bedroom is off, there’s only a dim light from the small bedside lamp. Sang Zhi’s body is on the bed, her first response is turning the small bedside lamp.

The time the light is off, Sang Zhi remembers the photo on the headboard. It’s her and Duan Jia Xu’s photo during his graduation.

In a next moment, Duan Jia Xu’s whole body leans close to her. His body sticks close to her back body. In the darkness, Sang Zhi just takes the photo and puts it down so it faces down.

Duan Jia Xu’s lips stop on her back neck, he starts to kisses it. Then he uses his other hand to open the drawer next to the bed and takes out a box.

The window curtain doesn’t shut out the light. It shows a bit of moonlight. Sang Zhi notices his action and could see clearly what he takes out. She couldn’t help but to ask: “How could you buy…”

Duan Jia Xu pulls her clothes lightly then he stops. He laughs lowly and says with his deep voice: “I bought it long time ago.”

“……”

“It’s expired already.”

Then Duan Jia Xu holds Sang Zhi’s hands, he looks at her face. He pants.

The atmosphere in the room turns to be passionate.

The black hair man has changed his refined and gentle appearance. Now he is smiling like a dregs, his face shows his stirrings of love.

Duan Jia Xu lowers his head and touches her.

Every his movement couldn’t be control, yet every time he hears her voice, he tries hard to control himself.

He is gentle. Duan Jia Xu’s movement is affectionate and continuous. he is patient and takes care of her. He pampers her: “Don’t be scared.”

Sang Zhi buries her face on his neck.

It’s a boundless night for them.

The Xiao Gu Niang whimpers slowly like a catalyst.

It makes him tears open all of his mask, he shows his most authentic self.

He wants to take possession of all of her, he wants to seize her everything like a wild beast.

Duan Jia Xu’s eyes are red, he says: “You are mine.”

—–

She is tossed about by him for a while, Sang Zhi’s voice is hoarse. She feels her whole body is full of sweat and sticky. She wants to get off the bed and takes a shower but her legs are weak, she has no energy.

At last Duan Jia Xu just carries her up to go to the bathroom, he sorts everything up. He says: “It seems like I’m not too good at controlling.”

Sang Zhi is sleepy and tired, her whole body is aching. She has no energy even to talk to him. She just wants to get clean and sleep. She is like a marionette, she just lets him help her. She even has no energy to be shy.

Very quickly, Duan Jia Xu touches and adds: “Why are you swollen?”

“……..”

“Are you hurt?”

Sang Zhi feels her sleepiness just disappears, she takes a deep breath and kicks him. She is somewhat irritated: “Could you be quiet?”

Duan Jia Xu laughs and helps her to put on her clothes. Then he carries her back to the bedroom.

Inside the room, there’s a remaining scent of their contact.

Sang Zhi doesn’t have difficulties sleeping in a bed other than her own bed. She is also lazy to bicker with him for taking her to his bedroom. She just wants sleep. She lays down on her stomach on her bed, she just gets inside her blanket and doesn’t lay down well. The next moment he just hugs her again.

Duan Jia Xu smiles: “Let’s talk.”

“………” Sang Zhi says: “Let’s talk tomorrow, I’m sleepy.”

“I just gave you myself, how could you treat me so coldly?” Duan Jia Xu pinches her cheek lightly: “How could you be so ruthless?”

Sang Zhi doesn’t want to respond to him.

She could feel that Duan Jia Xu is watching her. His gaze is scorching hot for her. She feels really sleepy, so she just extends her hand to hug him to pamper him.

Duan Jia Xu just holds her hand and says nothing else.

In her light sleep, Sang Zhi could hear him says: “Being a beast once.”

It’s not too clear.

In a next second, she hears: “Make me don’t want to be a person again.”