Secretly, Secretly; But Unable to Hide it (偷偷藏不住) by Zhu Yi (竹已)~ Chapter 76

It feels like they return to the past.

In the winter of Yi He City, in the spacious and crowded airport. Near the T3 exit, the young lady is controlling her tear.

In the same seat, she says the words she didn’t dare to say that time. She reveals what she tried to cover up. She exposes what she used to be ashamed of.

She presents everything.

She wishes that he could accept her sorry figure, then transforms into an energy and his ‘armor’.

He watches at that writings for a while, Duan Jia Xu lifts up his eyes and looks at Sang Zhi again. His voice is hoarse: “What are you afraid of?”

Sang Zhi sobs: “I am afraid that you would think that I’m odd, odd….”

She is afraid that he would thought that when she was young, she shouldn’t have that kind of feeling toward him.

She had pretended to drift apart from him, she used a lie to cover another lie.

It should be odd, it’s also indescribable.

“It’s not odd.” Duan Jia Xu extends his hand and wipes her tear. He pampers her: “How do you fold these stars again? I couldn’t fold it.”

Sang Zhi’s eyes are red. She takes it and folds it back.

Duan Jia Xu follows to fold the other star.

Very quickly, those two papers turn into the stars gain.

Duan Jia Xu takes those two stars and looks at it for a while. Then he puts it on his pocket and says: “Then I should keep this in a good place.”

Sang Zhi lowers her head and looks at her toes. She doesn’t say anything.

“Then to be exact, I’ve been making you cry for so many times.” Duan Jia Xu says, he holds her hand.

Sang Zhi takes a breath and her tears are falling down.

“How could you not say that you are not crybaby?” Duan Jia Xu stands up and says: “Stand up, I want to hold you. It’s not convenient to hold you if you are sitting down.”

Sang Zhi once again wipes her tears and stands up.

The next moment Duan Jia Xu bends his waist and hugs her. He comforts her: “Why are you telling me this now?”

Sang Zhi says depressingly: “I just want to say it.”

“You come back earlier just to say this to me?”

Sang Zhi turns silence for a seconds and says: “I come to find you because I also have something to say to you.”

Duan Jia Xu: “Then why are you crying?’

“…..”

“This time I don’t have a ‘so-called’ girlfriend.” Duan Jia Xu loosens his hold and laughs lightly: “Now I have a real girlfriend.”

Sang Zhi lifts her head and watches his face.

Duan Jia Xu helps to tidy up his coat on her and buttons it up. He says: “Why are you looking like a little pathetic person, why don’t you wear thicker cloth?””

Sang Zhi stands up and doesn’t move. She just watches him.

Sang Zhi looks like a Xiao Hai, who stole an adult’s coat.

He smiles and wipes her tears again.

“Let’s go, go home.”

—-

They get on the car, Sang Zhi takes out a wet tissue out from her bag. She wipes her tears then she just turns calmer. Seeing him somehow makes her much at ease.

Duan Jia Xu helps her to buckle up and he asks again: “Why did you decide to come back earlier?”

Sang Zhi answers honestly: “Because you ignored me.”

“I didn’t ignore you, recently I had so many works. I finished late and I didn’t want to disturb you sleep.”

“I thought you avoided me.”

“…..” Duan Jia Xu is startled. “I avoided me?”

“You said that you would consider again for a while, I also don’t know what do you want to consider.” Mentioning this makes Sang Zhi be unhappy again. “Then you didn’t really mind me, I thought you were avoiding me. I thought that if we were talking on the phone, you would be better at speaking.”

“…..”

“Yet if I come over and talk to you.” Sang Zhi says dully: “You supposedly wouldn’t have face to mention it.”

Duan Jia Xu understands her thought and he laughs: “What would I mention?”

Sang Zhi says nothing.

“What are you thinking?” Duan Jia Xu drives the car, he says calmly: “If it’s not your Pa’s disapproval, I would immediately grab you to register for a marriage certificate.”

“…….” Sang Zhi mumbles; Why could you use the word “grab”?”

“I’m afraid that you’ll run away.”

Hearing this, Sang Zhi turns relieved. She looks at him: “Then you said that you want to consider again, what are you considering?”

“I’m considering whether I should accompany you to stay here for two years, wait till you are graduated, then go back to Nan Wu together with you.” Duan Jia Xu says calmly: “Or should I come back now and settle down first.”

“…..” Sang Zhi is startled: “You don’t plan to stay at Yi He?”

“Em.”

“It’s okay if you want to continue to stay at Yi He, we both could discuss.” Sang Zhi says seriously: “You don’t need to accommodate to me for everything.”

“I really don’t want to stay here.” Duan Jia Xu says. “Moreover if I don’t accommodate you, then who should I accommodate?”

“…….”

“I keep on telling you to not worry, why are you still crying because of this?” Duan Jia Xu says: “Xiao Gu Niang, you should just study well, then everyday you should pestering your boyfriend. You don’t mind about anything else”

Sang Zhi frowns: “I would mind.”

“This period of time, I’ll go to your house and visit your parents again.” Duan Jia Xu says seriously: “I would make it clear with your Pa Ma. Don’t worry.”

—–

Sang Zhi came over with a night flight so the time they arrive at Duan Jia Xu’s apartment, it’s already early morning 02:00 a.m.

Sang Zhi starts to be relieved, she has arrived at a familiar environment. Now she feels tired yet secured. She says goodnight to Duan Jia Xu and returns to the bedroom.

Duan Jia Xu has no sleepiness on him, he sits on the sofa and hears that Sang Zhi is getting into the bedroom. He hears that she is showering.

He recalls what just happened before.

He recalls what she said, he takes out the stars. Then he stands up to find a box to keep it.

Then he gets into the bedroom and places the box near his bedside.

Duan Jia Xu returns to the living room and takes a cigarette out of the cigarette box on the coffee table. He smokes it for a while. He is at loss.

He smokes his cigarette and closes his eyes.

Duan Jia Xu, you are really a rogue.

—–

Because she is sleepy, Sang Zhi takes a quick shower. She yawns, while she dries her hair. Then she lays down on the bed, she covers herself well with the blanket and falls asleep.

In a daze, she could hear the door is opened and closed. It happens once more.

Sang Zhi opens her eyes and be silent for two seconds, then she falls asleep again.

The time she wakes up again, she doesn’t think that it’s a long time. The sky is still dark. She gets off the bed while her eyes are still heavy with sleepiness. She goes to the restroom for a while. The time she is out and wants to lay down on her bed again. She feels so thirsty.

She rubs her eyes and opens the door. The time she comes out of the bedroom, she could smell heavy smell of alcohol.

She gradually be sober and goes toward the living room.

The living room is quite dark as only the small table lamp is on. Duan Jia Xu is sitting on the sofa.

There are several empty beer cans on the floor.

Sang Zhi is confused. She starts to think that she is dreaming. “Why are you drinking beer?”

Duan Jia Xu lifts his head slowly.

Duan Jia Xu looks drunk, he looks giddy. Looking at Sang Zhi, he just smiles and waves his hand at her: “Xiao Hai.”

He looks like a person as the source of trouble.

It’s been quite some time since he calls her that way. She is confused how to respond. Yet very quickly, she guesses that he might be drunk so he doesn’t know what he is doing. She takes initiative and says: “I would pour a glass of water.”

Duan Jia Xu just holds her wrist and pulls her to his embrace.

Sang Zhi is caught off guard, she just stays in his embrace.

Then she takes a look at his face. His eyes show that he is not really drunk.

Duan Jia Xu just leans closer and his lips stick close to her ear. It is warm and numbing. He bites her ear. Sang Zhi could smell a faint scent of alcohol on him, it’s indescribably pleasant to smell.

Sang Zhi just hugs his neck and feels itchy, she couldn’t help but to retreat.

But she is pulled closer again toward his body.

His palm is hot and it is on her waist. It somehow feels electrifying.

The world seems to be belonged only by two of them.

Sang Zhi forgets her reason to come out of the bedroom.

She seems to be intoxicated by him, she lifts her head and bites his Adam’s Apple lightly.

Sang Zhi could feel that Duan Jia Xu’s body turns stiff.

Duan Jia Xu raises up her chin using his hand and looks at her for two seconds, then he kisses her hard on her lips. His action feels crude and rough. His tongue sweeps and explores her teeth. It doesn’t let her go.

It’s meaningful and passionate.

Their bodies are full of awareness.

They seem to be possessed by each other.

After a while, Duan Jia Xu lets her lips go. His eyes are full of passion and lust. He opens up and says hoarsely: “Xiao Hai.”

Sang Zhi lifts up her eyes to look at him and replies: “Em.”

He sounds different from his previous self, he seems to be seducing her.

“M*ke love with Ge Ge?”