Waiting for You in the City (一座城，在等你) by Jiu Yue Xi 玖月晞 ~ Chapter 44

Xu Qin is startled and immediately wants to push Meng Yan Chen.

Yet Meng Yan Chen doesn’t let her go, he holds her even tighter. He examines her face and expression closely as if he does’t believe that the one did this and used a spoiled child voice is her.

But she suddenly just changes herself into Meng Qin’s manner. She is cold and pretends to be calm. Xu Qin is panic, she pushes him again and says: “Meng Yan Chen, are you crazy!”

They both keep on pushing and pulling for a while, then suddenly a cold voice says: “You are hugging my girlfriend, when are you planning to let her go?”

Xu Qin is shocked and looks back; Under the night sky, Song Yan’s face is dark.

She pushes Meng Yan Chen away and wants to run toward Song Yan, yet Meng Yan Chen clutches her hand. Song Yan’s eyes turn cold. He holds Xu Qin’s hand and pulls her to stand behind his back.

He looks at Meng Yan Chen and shows his raging expression, he looks like he would beat him up.

Xu Qin doesn’t care about her aching arm and just holds Song Yan’s hand: “I recognized wrongly——-“

“Go up.” Song Yan cuts her off.

Xu Qin is startled and wants to say something else. Song Yan looks at her and asks: “Why, are you afraid that I would beat him up?”

Xu Qin listens to his words and her back turns cold. She knows that he is furious. She immediately lets her hand go and leaves to go upstair.

Meng Yan Chen watches her not even glancing back at him. He bites his lips.

The night is peaceful. There’s only sound of her footsteps on his ear.

It’s been ten years since their last meeting, both of them have changed a lot. That year they were weak teens but now they are strong men. But for some things, there’s a thing that are still the same, for example: the great disparity of their status.

They look at each other hostilely.

In tis world the most provoking thing that could men hate each other is when they are fighting for a woman.

Actually Song Yan really wants to beat Meng Yan Chen but looking at Xu Qin’s action, it somehow makes him not to be too unreasonable.

Meng Yan Chen is a smart person, he knows that this time he would not win as what happened last time in skating rink.

“You are her Ge, you should mind your action.” Song Yan warns.

It’s a sentence that could make Meng Yan Chen feels the pains and feels powerless. Meng Yan Chen’s face changes.

Facing this loser, Song Yan doesn’t feel excited to humiliate him more. He just wants to leave and returns to Xu QIn’s apartment.

After taking two steps, suddenly Meng Yan Chen speaks up: “You and her would have no end.”

Song Yan stops.

Meng Yan Chen says: “As long as the family doesn’t agree, she would not be with you. These days she doesn’t go home because she just run away from the reality. Don’t you know about it?”

Song Yan knows it clearly. A week ago in the morning, Fu Wen Ying called Xu Qin. Xu Qin didn’t go back to Meng house because she had to work overtime.

He smiles lightly: “It’s not your part to worry. Whether I could make her stay beside me or not, it depends on my skill.”

“Then, you would ask her to give up everything for you, to satisfy your selfish desire? Do you think you could feel at ease?” Meng Yan Chen shows his disgusted expression. “Song Yan, do you think you deserve her?”

Song Yan stops again.

“Ask yourself, do you deserve her?” Meng Yan Chen says calmly and smiles flatly. He seems to mock and despise Song Yan: “Look around in this small complex, she lives here. If it’s not because of her, how could you enter this complex? You should think it up, don’t you understand?”

Song Yan clenches his fist like he would punch him in a next second.

Meng Yan Chen says: “Because these years you are not trying enough, you don’t deserve her.”

Song Yan unclenches his fist.

“That year because of the great disparity between families, you were dumped. But you was ambitious, you used several ways to be great to deserve her. But now ah, huh, I thought you could have a great prospect, I was overestimating you. Look at you now, what do you have now? You are asking her to let go everything she has now just to be with you? Why?”

Song Yan stands there for several seconds and be speechless.

After a while, he turns his back and goes to stand up in front of Meng Yan Chen.

He takes out his cigarette box and takes out one cigarette. He smokes it. He offers one to Meng Yan Chen but he doesn’t respond.

Song Yan just smiles lightly and coldly.

He asks; “Meng Yan Chen, do you understand her?”

“Except knowing that she is sensitive and person of few words, what else do you know about her?” Song Yan asks with a cold smile. Then his smile just disappears: “You basically don’t understand her.”

Song Yan: “I know that during the middle school, you hate me, you hate me to lead her astray, you hate me to teach her how to drink, smoke, fight, you hate me to lie her to sleep with me.”

Meng Yan Chen’s face turns tense, he clenches his fist. Though it was years ago, he still bears grudge.

“The fact is going to the bar was her request to me; I didn’t let her smoke but she snatched my cigarette away; with her beside me, I didn’t fight but she just found someone to stir up trouble. She wanted to play, she wanted to get crazy, she wanted to be wild. She wanted to be free. Because she was constrained for a long time, so her ways were too extreme.”

Song Yan smokes and looks at Meng Yan Chen’s face.

“But that time, at least she was alive.

The night is turning darker.

Meng Yan Chen’s face turns pale.

He never sees that side of Xu Qin that Song Yan describes.

“……. So, you ask me why?”

“Just for her laughter.”

Meng Yan Chen couldn’t refute.

Yes, before her smile was so clear. She was alive. But the time she recognized him as Meng Yan Chen, she just turned cold.

Meng Yan Chen feels pain in his heart, he couldn’t control it.

“Yet that time, at least she acted a bit like proper human. Now after being constrained and oppressed for ten years, she even doesn’t have any courage.”

Song Yan lowers his head and plays with his cigarette. He recalls the day she looked to be strong and calm, she was angry and jealous but she didn’t dare to tell him about it. She was afraid that he wouldn’t like it, she was afraid that she would be disliked; Her appearance somehow looks like the time she just got into Meng family. She didn’t dare to talk too much, she didn’t dare to eat too much.

His hand is trembling lightly.

“She regards you guys as her family members, what do you guys regard her as?” Song Yan says with a low voice. He sounds furious and fulls of hatred. “Don’t you guys know clearly her temper? She looks cold and indifferent but she actually she always feels cared and terrified. She attaches importance to feeling. You and your family might not understand that she is good at acting. You guys wouldn’t care if she is bullied the time she marries into another family. You guys just think of her as a pion. You guys just want to use her to path your official career. Anyway even she is depressed, she wouldn’t complain to you.”

Hearing this Meng Yan Chen feels dejected and discontent, he says: “I would not use her to pave my future!”

“Could you protect her!” Song Yan asks back: “You even are helpless to protect yourself, Meng Yan Chen!”

Meng Yan Chen’s face turns pale, he says: “My parents aren’t what you said. They always play by the rule, indeed their rule constrains me and Qin Qin. But Qin Qin is their daughter, she is not a pion. … Also, they regard Qin Qin as their own daughter, so I…..”

So he couldn’t have any controversial relationship with Xu Qin and hurt them.

He couldn’t say it out loud.

Song Yan is speechless, he looks at Meng Yan Chen and suddenly knows the source of tragedy between him and Xu Qin. Yet Song Yan doesn’t want to say too much. Meng Yan Chen indeed has been in an extreme pain. The truth might hurt him even more.

“Go home.” Song Yan says: “Don’t make things hard for Xu Qin again.”

Meng Yan Chen shakes his head lightly, yet he doesn’t make it clear what he objects.

After a long silence.

“Do you know that she takes sleeping pill?” Song Yan speaks up.

“She also takes antidepressant. You said that this is a good living environment, yes indeed it’s great.” Song Yan lifts up his head and looks up. “Meng Yan Chen, take a look up. Think of it, with her current condition, till what time would you wait to see her jump down from upstair?”

The night wind blows, it sways Meng Yan Chen’s body like he is just a piece of paper. His face is so white.

Song Yan says: “You and your family, no one has right to say that I don’t deserve her.”

He throws away his cigarette butt and goes upstair.

Meng Yan Chen keeps on standing there. Pain? Regret?

Ten years, days and night, he never goes out. But at least she is still there.

But the future, the days in the future would be hard to bare.

He turns his body to leave.

……….

The water inside the kettle is boiling.

Xu Qin just realizes it after several moments. She doesn’t know what would happen between those men. She pours the hot water to the glass.

She just holds the glass and just realizes that it’s too hot.

She blows her hand for a while and still feels hot so she rinses it with cold water.

This time, the bell rings.

Xu Qin is startled. She immediately switches off the tap and goes to open the door. Looking that the person is Song Yan, she stops breathing for a while.

Song Yan looks at her silently, he shows no expression. He gets inside the apartment.

Xu Qin couldn’t make out what is in his thought, she just feels anxious.

He says nothing and closes the door behind his body.

She says with a low voice: “You guys weren’t fighting right?”

Song Yan looks at her and opens the door again. He uses his chin to point: “Go, go and take a look at him.”

Xu Qin has a goosebump and just closes the door.

She turns her body and Song Yan has approached her. He presses her to the wall.

Their bodies are close with each other.

Xu Qin doesn’t dare to provoke him right now. She thinks about it and touches his face. The time she touches it, he just holds her hand and presses it on the wall.

She even doesn’t have time to cry out in alarm,

“You recognized a wrong person em?” He leans closer to her ear and says: “Do you want to die?”