Secretly, Secretly; But Unable to Hide it (偷偷藏不住) by Zhu Yi (竹已)~ Chapter 79

It’s been so many years.

Duan Jia Xu once again remembers Xu Ruo Shu’s appearance. As before he still blames himself, as before he still feels helpless. It is one thing that he couldn’t make up. It’s the most regretful thing in his life.

He watches the man on the bedside.

He suddenly remembers what happened that morning. Before Duan Zhi Cheng went outside, he stroked his head gently and smiled. He said: “A Xu, for this examination, if you could continue to maintain your first place, Papa will give you a reward.”

It’s long time ago.

He never loses his first place, yet he never gets that reward.

Duan Jia Xu sits down straight and maintain his composure. He seems to remember something, he suddenly smiles and says: “But forget it.”

“Now I have a good life, I have met someone that I want to be together forever.” Duan Jia Xu extends his hands and helps to tidy up Duan Zhi Cheng’s blanket. “I seem to not especially need you anymore.”

“…..”

“But I still hope that you could wake up soon.” Duan Jia Xu laughs. “You should take a look how everything has changed and what have you missed.”

Then you would realize how that time you clearly had a lot of choices.

Yet you chose the worst one, a road to ruin.

—–

Sang Zhi has a bottle of water in her bag. Because of the first awkward experience of having menstrual period, she has a habit to bring her bag everywhere. She has a lot of things in her bag so before went out with Duan Jia Xu, she unconsciously brings a bottle of water with her.

She exits the sickroom and waits outside for a while.

In this institution, basically there’re only big sickrooms with eight beds. But maybe because of Duan Zhi Cheng’s health condition, he could get a single bed sick-room.

The room is narrow and doesn’t have a good soundproof.

Sang Zhi waits outside and could listens faintly Duan Jia Xu’s voices.

She is worried that he would come out and look for her so she just waits outside for a short while. She feels sad and sorry about him.

At last, Sang Zhi goes out of the the institution and goes to buy a convenient store near by.

The time she is back to the sickroom, Duan Jia Xu is out, he is in front of the cashier. He is handling the administration for the transfer.

Sang Zhi comes over and stands beside him then she passes the bottle of water to him.

Duan Jia Xu takes it and asks: “What takes you so long?”

“The queue is long.” Sang Zhi holds his hand and makes a lie: “There are lots of people there.”

“Em.” Duan Jia Xu holds her hand back. “I thought you lost your way. But now everything is done. Let’s go back.”

Sang Zhi nods.

They both take the elevator to go downstair.

Sang Zhi remembers what she saw outside, Sang Zhi walks quickly and drags him.

Duan Jia Xu lets her drags him, he laughs: “Why are you walking so fast?”

“You also need to walk faster.” He doesn’t exert any energy, he just depends on her strength. Sang Zhi looks at him and says seriously: “You are so heavy, it’s too strenuous to pull you.”

Duan Jia Xu walks a bit faster: “What is it?”

They are out in no time.

It’s a bit snowing outside.

It’s quite magical, the sun is there on the sky. It’s not too hot or nor cold. It’s quite warm.

The winter day with a fine snow and shinning sun, it’s warm.

Sang Zhi smiles happily toward him. “Look, it’s snowing but the sun is out.”

Duan Jia Xu lives here since he was young, he has seen this scene several times. He doesn’t feel it’s odd. But looking at her smile, he also smiles with her.

She says to him: “I only have ever seen a sun during the rainy day, but I never see sun in the snowy day.”

“Em.”

“Look, after the rain or snow, the sun will be out.” Sang Zhi wants to motivate Duan Jia Xu. “Sometimes during the rain or snow, the sun will be out.”

Duan Jia Xu listens to her and says: “Em.”

Sang Zhi watches him with her round eyes, she says gently and then comes closer to hug him.

Xiao Gu Niang is a short one, she wants to stroke his head so she stands on the tip-toe.

“So after the bad things, there would be good things.”

Life would get better.

Your life would also.

—–

This time it’s already past 02:00 p.m.

Sang Zhi only ate porridge for lunch, she feels a bit hungry. Both of them return to the university area and pass a restaurant. She gets inside and buys an egg waffle and hot drink nearby.

Duan Jia Xu holds the hot drink, he drinks it first to check whether the shop assistant gives him a wrong one as it’s hard to open the lid. Then he passes it to her.

Sang Zhi doesn’t take it, she just tears the waffle and feeds him.

Duan Jia Xu doesn’t really like snacks or sweets but he just eats it.

One by one he eats like he becomes addicted to be fed. Sang Zhi doesn’t eat it, she just feeds him.

Because of this, Duan Jia Xu feels a bit greasy, he drinks the water and asks: “You don’t like it?”

Sang Zhi throws the rubbish to the bin. She listens to him and blinks: “I like it. But it seems you like ti too so I give it all to you.”

She says it and hangs low her head. She takes out a candy and stuffs it to into his mouth.

Duan Jia Xu eats it and licks her fingers. Then he holds Sang Zhi’s head and sticks close his lips to her.

His tongue pries open her teeth and stuffs the candy inside her mouth.

It takes less of three seconds.

They are in a crowded place.

Sang Zhi is shocked. The time she responds, the candy has entered her throat. Her eyes goes big, she completely doesn’t dare to see anyone’s expression. She just says: “What are you doing!”

“Xiao Peng You (Little friend), feeding someone with your hand it’s too outdated.” Duan Jia Xu laughs and says slowly: “Now this is the new way you should feed me okay?”

“…………”

In an instant, Sang Zhi has an impulse to let him return her egg waffle.

They both enter a big supermarket.

Sang Zhi starts to run toward the snack area.

There’s still a lot of time so Duan Jia Xu doesn’t really rush to go to the fresh produce and freshly prepared food area. He just follows behind her. He looks at the shopping cart and notices a lot of snacks. He picks one and asks: “Why are you buying so many snacks?”

Sang Zhi takes a look and says seriously: “Because last time I ate this, you also ate with me. I feel that you should like this.”

Duan Jia Xu says nothing and puts it back.

Sang Zhi looks at shelf by shelf, she keeps going forward till she bumps into someone. That person looks at her and she is startled and for a while. That person just greets: “Hi.”

Sang Zhi also lifts up her hand and says: “Xiao Yu Jie.”

Shi Xiao Yu looks like she comes to the supermarket alone. She peeks to the inside of Sang Zhi and Duan Jia Xu’s basket, there’re several necessities good and snacks. She looks at Sang Zhi and Duan Jia Xu.

Previously when Sang Zhi was working as an intern, Duan Jia Xu frequently came to pick her up so Shi Xiao Yu recognizes Duan Jia Xu. She doesn’t say a lot of words. She just exchanges conventional conversation and pushes her shopping cart to leave.

Looking at her, Sang Zhi remembers Jiang Ying. She considers for a while and turns her head and asks: “Does Jiang Yi recently look for you?”

Duan Jia Xu says: “No.”

Sang Zhi: “Oh.” She asks nothing else.

They both walk toward the fresh produce and freshly prepared food area, they plan to eat at the apartment. Duan Jia Xu chooses several veggies and he says: “Zhi Zhi, I want to discuss something with you.”

Sang Zhi raises her head: “Em?”

Duan Jia Xu: “I plan to resign.”

“You want to change your job?”

“I plan to change a location, I plan to go to Nan Wu to open up a game studio.” Duan Jia Xu smiles: “I’ve talked with the company, I’ve also discussed about the procedures and administration.”

Sang Zhi is startled: “You really want to go back to Nan Wu?”

“That’s why I discuss this with you?” Duan Jia Xu says, “If you are unwilling that I’ll stay here for two more years. I still have time to talk to the company.”

Actually Sang Zhi isn’t too mindful about it.

After all she would be come back to Nan Wu for summer and winter vacation, moreover for long holiday. They might only not be able to meet up everyday.

But after this semester, Sang Zhi would be in her third-year of university. She should be so busy. For the fourth-year of university, she could be back to Nan Wu to do the internship.

It’s not a long separation.

Sang Zhi says slowly: “Then when would you go back to Nan Wu.”

Duan Jia Xu: “Next week.”

“Where would you live?”

“Qian Fei is helping me to find a house, I’ll rent it first.” Duan Jia Xu says,”He is recommending me several new residence area. After I come over, I’ll take a look around.”

“…..”

“Or perhaps I’ll wait till you are back at Nan Wu, we could see it together.”

Sang Zhi doesn’t really understand him, she is confused: “You want to buy an apartment?”

Duan Jia Xu looks at her: “Em.”

Sang Zhi: “Ah.” She is afraid that he would be to pressured. She stammers: “Buying an apartment at Nan Wu, it’s like…..the better area…. compare to Yi He…”

She doesn’t continue to speak, she changes her wording: “We shouldn’t rush this.”

Duan Jia Xu lowers his head and looks at her eyes. He suddenly just laughs: “You really feel that I’m that poor ah?”

“…..”

“Didn’t I tell you that I have a little bit of saving.” Duan Jia Xu strokes her head and says: “Though it’s not much but it’s enough for the down-payment.”

“…..Oh.” Sang Zhi doesn’t have any idea, she just says: “Anyway I don’t mind all of that things. If I work by myself, for five years supposedly I also couldn’t buy an apartment.”

“Em?”

“I mean,” Sang Zhi says, “For the thing that I don’t have, I also have no right to ask you to have it.”

“You have.” Duan Jia Xu says gently: “I would buy it for you.”

Sang Zhi is startled: “Ah?”

“That time you just need to let me stay there.” Duan Jia Xu says affectionately: “I also don’t need too much things, I just need to use half of your bed. It’s enough for me.”

“…”

Sang Zhi watches him, she still wants to say something. She takes a left to the drink shelf. She takes several bottles of coca-cola and coconut juice. She notices bottles of beer, she asks: “Do you want to buy a few of bottles of beer?”

Duan Jia Xu: “You want to drink?”

“No, but if you suddenly want to drink, you wouldn’t need to come out late night to buy it.” Sang Zhi says and pauses. She doesn’t want him to be depressed about this matter. She says: “Moreover when you drink, you are quite handsome.”

Hearing this, Duan Jia Xu raises his eyebrows: “I’m handsome when I’m drinking?”

Sang Zhi nods like a little chick pecks its rice: “Em.”

“You should be mistaken, Ge Ge is not handsome when Ge Ge is drinking.” Duan Jia Xu laughs and says flirty: “Ge Ge is….”

“Ah?”

“is handsome when on the bed.”

“…….”

—–

Sang Zhi returns back a bit early so her roommates aren’t back yet to the dorm. She is also not in hurry to go back to the dorm, she plans to stay at Duan Jia Xu’s place for two more days then returns to her dorm.

Duan Jia Xu is so busy for several days after. He just turns relaxed when it’s approaching the time he would go to Nan Wu. Time from time he would come over to Yi He University to accompany Sang Zhi to attend the classes.

He books the Friday morning flight to Nan Wu.

Sang Zhi plans to send him off so the day before his departure, Sang Zhi just simply stays at his place. She chats with him and slowly her attention is drawn to the TV. She lays on the sofa and watches the TV.

After a while, she starts to long for a good food, she wants to take out the Tang Yuan (stuffed dumplings made of glutinous rice flour served in soup) from the fridge and cook it. Sang Zhi climbs off the sofa and enters the kitchen.

She creates a great noise.

Sang Zhi just places the pot on the electromagnetic cooker, she hasn’t switched it on. Duan Jia Xu comes over and enters the kitchen. He asks: “What are you doing?”

Sang Zhi points at the pot and answers him honestly: “I’m cooking Tang Yuan.”

Duan Jia Xu looks at it and says:”Just go out and watch TV, I’ll help you to cook it.”

“I could cook it.” This is should be easier to cook rather than instant noodle. She just needs to wait till the water is boiled then she should put the Tang Yuan inside. The time it floats, she could take it. Sang Zhi asks: “If you want to eat it, I’ll cook a bit more.”

Duan Jia Xu says slowly: “Then let us cook together.”

“…….”

For being sure to make a well-cooked Tang Yuan, Sang Zhi looks for especially big pot. She also puts half pot with the water. It makes the water to boil so slow.

They both just chat. Sang Zhi is hugged and carried up by him to sit on the kitchen counter. Then she is kissed by him.

She could hear the sound of electromagnetic cooker.

Sang Zhi doesn’t close her eyes, she watches Duan Jia Xu’s face. She could hear he makes an extremely sexy voice.

Actually she likes when he is close to him.

She hugs his neck and responds to him.

After a while, the water starts to boil.

Duan Jia Xu pauses his action, he still looks at her. He uses his nose to touch her face. He says hoarsely and flirty: “Do you want…..”

“…..”

“To do it once in the kitchen?”