Secretly, Secretly; But Unable to Hide it (偷偷藏不住) by Zhu Yi (竹已)~ Chapter 51

The time he is talking with her, Duan Jia Xu used to lower his head to look at her. His body is slightly bending and his eyes meet her eyes.

They are standing close to each other.

His lips breaths out a warm breath, Sang Zhi feels like she could feel it. It also brings a faint tobacco scent.

Sang Zhi just takes a step back awkwardly and says subtly: “How could you have face to say that kind of thing?”

Duan Jia Xu straightens his body and says calmly and composedly: “Isn’t it because I want to be a polite rogue?”

“……”

“If you don’t like to hear it.” Duan Jia Xu smiles and once again bends his body and approaches her closer: “Then I’ll directly….”

Sang Zhi straightens her face and clutches the hem of her shirt nervously: “Directly what?”

Duan Jia Xu just stops and looks at her eyes.

The little lady’s eyes are big and round, it’s clear and bright. It’s full of him. Perhaps because she never experiences any of this, her expression is somewhat rigid, she looks like she even forgets to breath.

Yet she acts like she remains unmoved.

Duan Jia Xu stands up straight again and laughs: “Forget it.”

Sang Zhi releases her breath in an instant but she feels a bit disappointed.

“It’s better to be more polite.” Duan Jia Xu lifts up his hand and then touches her corner of her eyes. He says hoarsely, he says dubiously and affectionate: “I’m afraid that you’ll cry.”

—–

Now it’s already 10:00 p.m. Because of living in the dorm, Sang Zhi doesn’t want to affect her roommates’ work and rest. She plans ot go home early and get ready to sleep.

Duan Jia Xu sends her back to her dorm.

Sang Zhi turns her body and wants to say good bye to him, suddenly she notices that he is looking at something for quite some time. She looks over too and notices a couple, who are kissing and hugging like that they are reluctant to part.

“…….”

During this time, a lot of couples are coming back to female dorm after going to date.

The light is dim at night, she couldn’t make it out their face clearly. All of them are self-absorbed.

Sang Zhi feels nothing wrong about it.

But this time Duan Jia Xu is with her, he is watching those couples. It makes her feel awkward.

“Then let’s go home.” Sang Zhi coughs lightly, she pulls his attention back: “Jia Xu Ge, it’s late. Remember to drive safely.”

Duan Jia Xu just withdraws his gaze and suddenly asks: “I’ve been chasing after you for three days, how could I not hold your hand?”

“……” Sang Zhi looks at him without any expression, she says: “Are your actions could be said as pursuing me?”

“Em?” Duan Jia Xu looks like, “No?”

“I’m just reminding you. If you pursue someone like this, you commonly will not be able to get it.”

Duan Jia Xu: “Ah, then what should I do?”

“Why are you asking me?” Sang Zhi doesn’t give him any face, she frowns, “Perhaps you want me to teach you how to chase after me?”

Duan Jia Xu says shamelessly: “Couldn’t I?”

“……”

“I just remind you, even though I give you a clue, you might not be able to do it.” Sang Zhi says seriously: “You could browse around or perhaps asking other people.”

Duan Jia Xu says: “What’s wrong about me?”

“These three days you chatted with me through WeChat, you frequently called me,” Sang Zhi tries to suggest, “With me here, three days of not meeting pursuer, it means that it’s hopeless.”

Duan Jia Xu: “Weren’t you busy?”

Sang Zhi: “Then what is the different between you and internet friend?”

“……..”

Sang Zhi continues to add: “You are this old, do you want to learn from someone to have a cyberlove ?”

Hearing her explanation makes Duan Jia Xu remembers her past matter. He looks at her and says: “Then tell me from whom I learn it?”

“………”

Sang Zhi also remembers about her lie about ‘internet friend’, she immediately feels guilty, she immediately waves at him and walks toward her dorm. “Anyway I will just tell you till this part. It’s up to you to listen to me or not.”

—–

Duan Jia Xu returns to his car but he doesn’t drive directly. He just considers what Sang Zhi said to her. He picks her phone and sends her a message. [Are you free tomorrow?]

Zhi Zhi: [No.]

Every time she will reply this word.

Duan Jia Xu just laughs and says: [Now I am suspecting that you are lying to me.]

Duan Jia Xu: [Send me your class schedule.]

Then he gets a photo that shows a full jam-packed class schedule. Sang Zhi adds: [I have a full-class.”

Duan Jia Xu looks at it. [It indeed is a full class.]

Sang Zhi doesn’t answer.

Duan Jia Xu laughs: [It treat our Zhi Zhi wrongly.]

Sang Zhi doesn’t reply anything

He just puts down his phone and drives his car.

At night there’re only few people and cars. Duan Jia Xu lowers down the window and thinks of Sang Zhi. He starts to smile.

His mind turns blank, he remembers again that he met Jiang Ying today.

Occasionally he even will think whether she has mental problem or not. Maybe because it’s just Jiang Ying. Maybe she sometimes feels so tired and starts to hallucinate.

If not how could that there’s that kind of person.

For ten years she keeps on pestering him and not letting him go.

She keeps on appearing in front of his face, she keeps on saying extremely bad words. Her mood has turned from bad to worse.

She puts all the blames, who were not his, to him.

After being pushed by Jiang Ying that time, several students came over to comfort her. They asked him to try his best to avoid her. After a while, what happened and what his homeroom teacher said were passed on to the principal.

Then the homeroom teacher got a disciplinary action.

Considering the relationship between Jiang Ying and Duan Jia Xu, finally the school moved him to another class.

Afterwards, actually a lot of people told Duan Jia Xu to not listen to the homeroom teacher’s words and not think about Jiang Ying’s action.

Actually what hurt him the most is the words said by his classmates.

— “How could he have face to let Jiang Ying apologize to him….”

That is the first time Duan Jia Xu felt his dignity is trampled to the bottom part.

Previously every time Jiang Ying said those words in front his classmates to mock or attack him. He wouldn’t care about it.

Because of Duan Jia Xu thought it’s the best way, everyone would think the same way as her.

He thought that matter is unrelated to him.

But Jiang Ying loses his father, she feels heartbroken so her words are harsh. She just thinks of him as her thing to vent his anger.

But the time he heard his classmate said those words.

He just realizes that their thoughts aren’t the same.

It turns out in the dark. There’re people that think his father’s mistake should be compensated by him too.

No matter is it most people or few people.

That classmate’s words affect his life greatly.

Duan Jia Xu could only force himself to realize that the time Jiang Ying meets him, it equals to reveal his past scar. So he tries to not appear in front of her.

But Jiang Ying’s thought is different completely from him.

She feels that she is in pain so she wants to make his life unhappy too.

After moving to another class, Duan Jia Xu’s class was on the fifth floor. His previous class was on the third floor. Though there’re gap, but Jiang Ying from time to time came over to look for trouble with him.

That time it almost entrance examination for senior meddle school, Xu Ruo Shu heard about this and asked about his opinion. Then she said to the school to let him go home and study by himself.

Afterwards, Duan Jia Xu got into the Yi He’s first school (Yi Zhong).

Jiang Ying’s achievement wasn’t great so she couldn’t follow him. His life just gradually started to be okay.

………

Without knowing, his car enters the small complex.

He parks his car and looks at his phone. He notices that Sang Zhi just replies his message: [I’ll sleep first. Bye bye.]

He also replies again: [I’m home.]

[Oh.]

Duan Jia Xu just smiles again. Then he takes out one of the candies that are given from Sang Zhi before and eats it.

—–

Sang Zhi feels that her suggestion to Duan Jia Xu is like throwing a stone to the sea. There’s no respond. After few days after that day, he shows no change.

It’s just during the weekend, they both go to have meal and go to the cinema.

Then she feels that everything is back to normal situation.

She feels that if they are dating for real, supposedly it will be like a long-distance relationship.

Normally Sang Zhi would say that she is busy, but she also needs to eat. Couldn’t he just take a chance of that time to come and take her out for a dinner.

When another man chases another person, he will purposely create a chance of meeting by accident.

But he, he is too aloof.

Maybe it’s because of her last word.

–“Anyway I will just tell you till this part. It’s up to you to listen to me or not.”

Maybe he answers inside his heart: “I’ll not hear you out.”

Sang Zhi is so angry.

She releases her breath and washes her face cleanly. The time she comes out of the bathroom, she sees that Yu Xin is still sleeping. Sang Zhi knocks on her bed and asks: “Don’t you have class?”

After several seconds, Yu Xin says: “Last night I stayed up late to read novel. Now I’m too sleepy. Help me to sign the absence list. I’ll not go.”

Sang Zhi nods. Actually she also feels sleepy and is too lazy to do her makeup. But she controls her laziness and just draws her brows and uses her lipstick. Then she tidies up and leaves the room.

For this period it’s a big lecture.

Sang Zhi comes early so half of the lecture room is still empty.

She conforms with the norms of society to sit down by the window, she finds an empty seat on the row with four seats.

She looks at her phone and yawns. The time she is getting ready to lie on her stomach to sleep for a while, she notices that someone is sitting down beside her. She lifts up her eyes to look over. She is startled and turns silly.

The person in front of her just wears a simple white shirt and black trousers, he looks fresh and clean. He looks at her and lifts up his eyes, he smiles: “What a coincidence.”

“…..”

“You also attend this class?”

“………” Sang Zhi seems to have losing her way to respond, she asks: “You don’t go to work?”

“I am compensated for working on a holiday by resting on a workday.”

Sang Zhi scratches her head: “Then how could you know that I have class here?”

Duan Jia Xu laughs: “Didn’t I ask you for your class schedule?”

“Oh.” Sang Zhi says with a low voice: “You want to attend the class together with me.”

Duan Jia Xu says concisely: “We meet by accident.”

“……”

He wasn’t attending college at Yi He, he has graduated for around four years. How could he say those words.

There are ten minutes left before the class start.

Sang Zhi grumbles. “Your attire is like a college student.”

Duan Jia Xu raises his eyebrow: “Do I look young?”

Sang Zhi: “It’s okay.”

Duan Jia Xu: “Okay, in the future I’ll wear something like this.”

“…….”

Because of his sudden appearance, Sang Zhi feels hard to maintain her calmness.

She takes out her book and lays her head on the table. She plans to continues with her plan, she calms herself down. “I’m sleepy. I want to sleep for ten minutes. If not later on, I’ll fall asleep. Then the teacher will choose me to answer the questions.”

Duan Jia Xu looks at her for two seconds and laughs: “I come make you sleep ah?”

Sang Zhi explains: “I am really sleep even before noticing you are coming.”

Duan Jia Xu; “Okay, you could sleep.”

Sang Zhi closes her eyes but because of his appearance, she has lost her sleepiness. Perhaps it’s her illusion, she feels that this time Duan Jia Xu is watching her.

She hesitates whether she needs to change the direction of her head.

But she is afraid that it’s too clear.

She suddenly remembers that she isn’t wearing her full makeup.

Ay.

Why isn’t he telling her earlier?

Then she wouldn’t be that lazy to do it.

Duan Jia Xu watches her side-face intensely. Her facial feature is small and nimble, her skin is smooth and fine, her lips are rosy red.

After a while, her eyelashes are quivering slightly.

Duan Jia Xu pauses for several seconds and his eyebrows raise up.

A little kid that pretends to be asleep.

Duan Jia Xu feels that this is interested, he suddenly straightens up his body and approaches her. Then he uses his finger to touch her cheek and his lip presses close to his finger. He kisses his finger.

It makes a small sound.

In the next moment, he looks that Sang Zhi opens her eyes and lifts up her head.

Looking at his face that close, her lips move. She looks at him with disbelief stare. Sang Zhi is startled for few seconds and remembers what happened.

Duan Jia Xu teases: “Why are you awake?”

Sang Zhi just regains herself. This man just kisses him secretly, she blushes and yells: “Duan Jia Xu!”

It’s his first time to hear her calling his full name, Duan Jia Xu is startled for a while and laughs. He asks: “What are you calling me?”

“…….”

Duan Jia Xu reminds seriously: “Sang Zhi, mind your manner.”

“…….”

“With our current relationship, you call me this way,” Duan Jia Xu says slowly: “Isn’t it appropriate?”