Secretly, Secretly; But Unable to Hide it (偷偷藏不住) by Zhu Yi (竹已)~ Chapter 39

She looks at his back, Sang Zhi hesitates for few seconds. At first she wanted to just lie on it. But she remembers something, she says seriously: “You couldn’t carry me on your back.”

Duan Jia Xu looks at her when he hears this. “You also don’t let me to do this?”

Sang Zhi nods and says: “Yi Sheng (Doctor) said you need to avoid to carry heavy things for three months.”

Duan Jia Xu is startled a bit and smiles: “You are drunk but you still remember this?”

Sang Zhi doesn’t respond, she just lowers her eyes and counts with her fingers. “Your operation was in eleven (November), twelve, thirteen, fourteen….”

“No, it’s wrong.” It’s wrong. Sang Zhi frowns. “Twelve, thirteen……”

“…….” Duan Jia Xu laughs: “Twelve (December), One (January).”

Sang Zhi looks at him, her mind is in chaos. She doesn’t understand why twelve than one. She hesitates: “Then…. Ge Ge, just help me to count it……”

“March.”

Sang Zhi: “Oh.” She sits up and asks: “March… could you carry me on your back?”

Duan Jia Xu laughs: “I could.”

Then Sang Zhi suddenly remembers: “But I am 40kg…..” she says it, she starts to cry and crumbles: “I am 40 kg…”

“…….”

“I also,” She looks down and be dumbfounded. She cries sadly. “I have no chest…. I have no chest…..wooo……. I have no chest….”

Duan Jia Xu just kneels down on the ground. He never expects to hear those words. He is startled few seconds. He feels like he is teased by her. He laughs out loud. His laugh till he couldn’t breath, his voice turns hoarse.

“What are you talking about?”

“Why are you laughing at me?” Sang Zhi is still teary. She points at him and says unhappily. “You also don’t have it, why are you laughing at me?”

“Em, I also don’t have.” Duan Jia Xu immediately restrains himself. “So let’s comfort each other for a while, okay?”

“…..” Sang Zhi immediately stops crying and feels like she finds someone in the same experience as her. She finally is perfectly happy to lie on his back. “Then, don’t don’t be too sad.”

Duan Jia Xu stands up and controls his laughter. “Em, let’s not be too sad.”

Sang Zhi uses her glove to wipe her tears: “Ge Ge, what if I throw up later on?”

Duan Jia Xu throws his dirty cloth to the bin and looks around. He says gently: “If you want to throw up, later on tell me.”

She says: “What if I couldn’t endure it?”

“Then just don’t hold it.” Duan Jia Xu says: “Just don’t throw up on Ge Ge’s head.”

Sang Zhi: “Oh.” She says nothing else.

Duan Jia Xu is afraid that she will feel uncomfortable to get on the car, he just carries her up back to Yi He University. He asks casually: “Tomorrow you need to take the plane, why were you drinking alcohol?”

Sang Zhi places her chin on his shoulder. She says: “I am unhappy.”

“……..”

She says it and suddenly cries. She says depressingly: “Zhi Zhi is unhappy.”

Duan Jia Xu looks at her: “Zhi Zhi, why are you unhappy?”

Sang Zhi doesn’t answer.

Duan Jia Xu looks at front. In the dark, his expression is dim. “Because that someone that Zi Zhi likes?”

Sang Zhi wipes her tears and “Em.”

“You couldn’t tell me who is it?”

“Em.”

“Then you can describe to Ge Ge a bit.” Duan Jia Xu says calmly. “How does he look like? Is he good? Is he treating you good?”

Sang Zhi lifts up her head and looks at his side face. She bends her head and says: “Nan, Nan……” (Man Man….”

After quite a while, she hasn’t finished it.

“What Nan (man)?” Duan Jia Xu says, “Nan Shen (Male God: Mr Perfect).”

Sang Zhi shakes her head and says: “Nan, Nan Hu Li Jing (Man fox spirit- a seductive woman).”

Duan Jia Xu: “………..”

What kind of description it is?”

“He is a good person, he treats me well.” Sang Zhi’s mood just falls down, she chokes. “But he always treats anyone well………”

“…………”

She says it and she suddenly turns angry: “Zhong! Yang! Kong! Tiao! (Zhong Yang Kong Tiao: Central air-conditioning is a buzzword on the Internet, referring to men who radiate warmth and love to two or more women at the same time, as if the central air-conditioning that blows cold air to anyone.

“He is bad boy?” This time Duan Jia Xu doesn’t smile, he just turns silent and says: “You like him that much?”

Sang Zhi feels so heartbroken, she buries her face on his shoulder. Her tears keep on falling down. She is sobbing loudly, she couldn’t control herself. She is crying like a little kid.

Duan Jia Xu continues to ask: “Then let’s not like him anymore, okay?”

Sang Zhi says nothing and just cries.

Duan Jia Xu doesn’t say anything else.

He enters the Yi He University gate and takes her to her dorm. Her sobbing sound gradually disappears. She seems to fall asleep.

The road to the dorm is a bit quiet so it’s like another world.

Duan Jia Xu turns his head to look at her.

He notices that Sang Zhi has fallen asleep, she seems to tire herself out because of the crying so long.

Duan Jia Xu calls after her: “Sang Zhi.”

There’s no reply.

Her breathing has a normal rhythm, her breath feels warm and light on his neck.

Duan Jia Xu looks at her for a long time and suddenly laughs: “You like that kind of man?”

“…….”

“Nan Hu Li Jing (Seductive man)?”

“Then,” Duan Jia Xu mumbles: “I change to be that kind of man, okay?”

The young girl doesn’t move, she has entered her dream. She doesn’t hear anything.

“Then I’ll only be good toward you okay?” Duan Jia Xu continues: “Then our Zhi Zhi will not be sad anymore.”

“Letting anyone else take care of you, I still, really feel anxious.”

“Could I?”

“………”

“You don’t say anything, so Ge Ge will just think that you are agree with me.”

Duan Jia Xu waits for a while and he smiles. “Okay, our Zhi Zhi agrees.”

“Ge Ge is quite good right.” Duan Jia Xu says carelessly and casually. “I’m not poor, I’m also handsome. Except I’m a bit older than you.”

“But when I was twenty years old, you said that I’m old. To round it off, now you are twenty years old too.” He feels it reasonable, he teases: “So our Xiao Sang Zhi is old too.”

This a woman that he watches growing up for few years.

If she could meet someone that she really likes, and treats her well forever.

Of course it’s a good thing.

But he is afraid that she might be hurt.

Just like tonight, even she is drunk, she couldn’t say what she really feels. She even cries even when she is sleeping.

Duan Jia Xu thinks about it.

Except her family members, there shouldn’t no one could treat her well than him.

“Ge Ge will earn more money and let you be able to eat a candy that costs around 1000 Yuan.” Duan Jia Xu says. “Then you’ll forgive Ge Ge’s …”

“Ge Ge’s plan to Lao Niu Chi Nen Cao (Old cow eats tender grass: Old man has relationship to younger woman).”

He smiles: “Okay?”

—–

Sang Zhi is muddle-headed, she hears Duan Jia Xu wakes her up to ask what is her dorm room number. Then she is carried by him upstair. He prepares a glass of warm water and honey, then he asks her to finish it.

He seems to ask the woman, in the next dorm room, to help change her clothes.

Then he lets her sleep.

The time she wakes up, it’s already the next morning. She has a great headache, she sits up dully. She is a bit blank.

She recalls what happened last night.

She said a lot of things.

She also said to him that she has someone that she likes.

But she remembers that even she was drunk, her lips are sealed. She doesn’t say anything he shouldn’t

But.

She! Vomited! On! Him!

“…..” Sang Zhi pulls her hair. She covers her face inside the blanket. She looks at her phone and notices Duan Jia Xu sends her several messages.

She straightens her lips and opens the messages up.

Her other roommates have woken up.

They look over at her.

Wang Ruo Lan sits down and looks at her. She asks: “Sang Zhi, the one that sent you back here, is it your Ge Ge’s friend that you said before?”

Sang Zhi says: “Em.”

Yu Xin turns excited: “Wow, he is really handsome. I didn’t believe you before, but d*mm*t he is really handsome!”

“Ay, really. Compared to my boyfriend, he is great.” Ning Wei says: “Yesterday when we came home, we thought we are in the wrong dorm.”

Sang Zhi couldn’t help to ask: “When did he go?”

“When we were back home 12:00 p.m, he just left.” Ning Wei says, “He seemed to keep on sitting down on your current seat.”

Wang Ruo Lan: “He should be afraid that you are uncomfortable so he stayed to take care of you.”

Sang Zhi nods and looks at her phone.

Ge Ge No.2 : [I asked your roommates to wake you up at 09:00 a.m.]

Ge Ge No.2 : [This time the ticket is sold out, you couldn’t reschedule it. You should get up now, if not you will not be able to go home.]

Ge Ge No.2 : [After you are awake drink bit of water, I’ll come over to take you to the airport at 10:00 a.m.]

Sang Zhi just replies: [Okay.]

Then she looks at the time. It’s just 09:00 a.m. She lifts up her blanket and tidies up her bed. She says: “If this lifetime I drink alcohol again, I am a dog.”

Yu Xin is curious: “What are you doing ah?”

Sang Zhi doesn’t say anything.

Wang Ruo Lan smiles: “Did you kiss him when you were drunk?”

“How could it be?” Sang Zhi looks at her: “Stop saying nonsense.”

“You were drunk then you confessed?”

Sang Zhi takes off her coat and looks at her : “Now I’ll be crazy.”

Ning Wei: “Then what did you do?”

Sang Zhi pauses and feels twisted. She says: “I threw up on his body.”

“….”

The dorm room turns silence.

Yu Xin coughs: “No wonder I feel a weird scent.”

Wang Ruo Lan sympathizes with her: “Then your silent crush should end now.”

Ning Wei: “How could you not control it?”

“I also don’t want it.” Sang Zhi suddenly thinks about it. She smells the scent on his body. She frowns: “Ay, forget it. Later I’ll apologize to her.”

Ning Wei: “But he doesn’t look like he dislike you that much.”

“He has a great temper. If I throw up on his body supposedly he will not be angry.” Sang Zhi gets off the bed and tidying up everything. “I need to have a shower now.”

She takes her change clothes and goes into the bathroom.

Before she gets into the bathroom, Sang Zhi could hear her roommates says: “Shen Xian Nan Ren” (Immortal Man)

“……………”

After the shower, Sang Zhi takes her hairdryer to dry her hair. Because she drunk alcohol, her state of mind isn’t that great.

Sang Zhi applies makeup quickly on her face, then opens up her suitcase to tidy up her things. She doesn’t bring anything much home, she just brings several books and her laptop and bedding bag and sheets. She doesn’t bring home anything else.

After a while.

At 10:00 a.m. Sang Zhi says goodbye to her roommates and drags her suitcase out of her dorm.

Because it’s holiday, the car could enter the university complex.

Sang Zhi immediately notices Duan Jia Xu’s car and walks over. She considers how should she apologize to him.

Very quickly, Duan Jia Xu gets off the car and comes over to drag her suitcase for her.

Sang Zhi doesn’t dare to look at him and says: “Ge Ge, good morning.”

Duan Jia Xu: “Em, good morning.”

She doesn’t say anything else. She plans to apologize to him when they are on the car. She gets on the front passenger seat and Duan Jia Xu puts her suitcase on the trunk. He is a step later than her to get on the car.

Hearing the door is closed, Sang Zhi looks at him and says: “Yesterday I drunk too much, I was uncomfortable….”

Duan Jia Xu looks at her: “Em.”

“So I couldn’t endure it.” Sang Zhi feels embarrassed to mention it. She lowers her head. “I accidentally did it, it should be disgusting….. I’m sorry Ge Ge.”

He says carelessly: “It’s okay.”

After he says it, Sang Zhi feels that he approaches her. Her breathing pauses. She lifts her head and looks at him. Their gazes meet each other.

Duan Jia Xu lowers her his head and looks at her intensely. He suddenly smiles. His body is closed with each other. Then he takes the seatbelt on her side.

“What is it?” Sang Zhi feels unease. “Oh, I forget to fasten…”

Duan Jia Xu helps her to buckle up. He keeps on looking at her like he is tempting her.

Sang Zhi asks again: “What are you doing?”

Duan Jia Xu sits back slowly and buckles his seatbelt again. “Nothing.”

Sang Zhi says: “oh.”

The car starts moving.

Sang Zhi looks at her and feels something is strange but she couldn’t say it. She scratches her head and doesn’t care much about it. She looks at the check-in time for her ticket. “02:30 p.m. flight, should we go to the airport now?”

“Let’s have a meal first.” Duan Jia Xu says. “We will go to the airport after that.”

She remembers that this time she will go home for a month, Sang Zhi hesitates and asks: “Ge Ge, for the Lunar New Year, how would you plan to spend it?”

“Stay home and see the Spring Festival Gala Evening?” Duan Jia Xu considers it, “Then wait for Xiao Sang Zhi’s blessing message.”

“……”

Why it sounds so miserable?

“Right.” Sang Zhi pursues her lips, she tries to form her wording. “This year you also, right, twenty six years old. You should have a girlfriend, if you have time you also can……”

“Which girlfriend?” Just in time it’s a red light, Duan Jia Xu stops his car. He says lazily: “Xiao Sang Zhi will introduce someone for Ge Ge?”

Sang Zhi: “Who should I introduce you to? The ones that I know are around my age.”

Duan Jia Xu smiles gently: “Around your age?”

Supposedly Sang Zhi thinks that he will say: “Forget it, you Xiao Peng You.”

Sang Zhi could guess it so she just nods.

After a while, Duan Jia Xu smiles.

When the car starts to move again, Sang Zhi hears he says lightly.

“Okay.”