Secretly, Secretly; But Unable to Hide it (偷偷藏不住) by Zhu Yi (竹已)~ Chapter 84


The assembly halls turns silence for a while, then Sang Zhi hears the people around her are laughing. She doesn’t know whether there is any person who taking his photos too. She just silently puts down her phone and switches off her phone.

This moment Sang Zhi feels rejoice. Luckily, no one knows about their relationship.

There’re only five seconds left. In a next second, Duan Jia Xu just pretends like nothing is happened. He just concludes his speech.

He smiles gently yet it looks serious and cold.


Sang Zhi really feels that he is an awesome man.

She never meets more awesome man than him.

Looking that he is done with his speech and returning the microphone back to the MC. Sang Zhi suddenly remembers something, she picks up her phone and gives him a message: [Just sit down on your original seat.]

Sang Zhi: [Just meet when we are out of the university front gate.]

She doesn’t! want to be ! embarrassed with him!

After she sends it, she looks around and notices her classmate is looking at her now.

Her classmate just raises both of her thumbs up at her.

Sang Zhi: “……….”


He seems to see her messages as after he gets off the stage, Duan Jia Xu doesn’t look at her and just glances then smiles. He returns to his own seat.

Sang Zhi just sits down and watches his face.

Duan Jia Xu seems to recognize the man beside him, he is talking with that man for a while.

Sang Zhi withdraws her gaze.

No matter what, this time she would scold him.

She! wouldn’t! be! soft-hearted!

This time Sang Zhi’s phone vibrates.

Duan Jia Xu sends his message.

Duan Jia Xu: [Are you angry?]

Sang Zhi types “a bit”, then she thinks about it then erases it. She changes her answer “em”. She looks at it for a while then at last she doesn’t send it. She decides to let him be troubled so he could consider his action.

Finally it’s award ceremony. Sang Zhi and several people are called together. They are given certificates.

During the distribution of certificates, all the products are shown.

Sang Zhi feels shy. She doesn’t expect that Duan Jia Xu would come. She never shows him her drawing. Sometimes he passed while she was drawing, she would immediately be alarmed and close her drawing.

The screen shows the character’s front side, back side, and side.

Her design character is a man is standing sluggishly, he has a white tail at his back. His hand is holding a fan. He is smiling gently. He is wearing a red Chinese robe and shows a wide area of his chest.

Sang Zhi looks at Duan Jia Xu and meets his eyes. She pretends to look away. She takes photos then gets off the stage.

When everything is ended.

Sang Zhi takes photos with her friends and goes out of the assembly hall.

She finds a place to wait for Duan Jia Xu.

The temperature outside is low so Sang Zhi takes out her scarf and covers her neck.

After a while, Duan Jia Xu also comes out. He is wearing a coat outside his suit.

He comes toward her and stands in front of him.

Sang Zhi watches him.

“I’m wrong.” Duan Jia Xu extends his hand to hold her and admits his wrong with clear view of thing. “I just saw that it’s hard for you to take my photos so I changed my position to let you take good ones.”

“Then couldn’t you just change your position and say nothing?” Sang Zhi says stiffly.

“Isn’t it called a high-tone affectionate action?” Duan Jia Xu thinks about it. “I thought that currently Xiao Gu Niang (Little woman) like this.”


“Last year I came over once and saw that a student went on the stage and just confessed.” Duan Jia Xu says slowly: “This time I have a girlfriend so I want to try it out too.”


Sang Zhi recalls that last time Duan Jia Xu said how he planned to confess to her with heart-shaped candle under her dorm building.


This man is so cheesy.

“It’s okay, no one knows it’s you. Moreover, I have attended a lot of award ceremonies.” Duan Jia Xu pinches her cheek: “Ge Ge has sense of propriety.”


You have a spirit.

Sang Zhi’s anger just disappears, she mumbles: “In the future if you do something like this again, I will really pretend to not know you. If someone asks me, I would say that he only looks like my boyfriend.”

Duan Jia Xu smiles: “Today you didn’t you pretend to not know me?”

“It’s because we are out of the university area.” Sang Zhi pretends to be bold.

Duan Jia Xu doesn’t mind her and just holds her hand: “Let’s go home?”

He doesn’t mention about her product, she doesn’t know whether he notices it or not. Maybe he forgets about it. Sang Zhi is relieved and holds her hand back.



When they arrive back at the apartment, Sang Zhi goes to the bedroom to change her clothes then she goes to lay down on the sofa. She opens up the video she of Duan Jia Xu that she recorded before.

She blinks and repeats it for several times, then she just smiles.

Duan Jia Xu comes out of the kitchen with a bottle of water, he sits down beside her and watches her expression. He also smiles and says flirty: “You clearly like it.”

Sang Zhi doesn’t deny it, she just kicks him: “Anyway in the future, you shouldn’t do this anymore.”

Duan Jia Xu just lets her kick him. Then he holds her ankle, he lifts it up and bites it.

It’s not too hard, but it’s wet and ticklish. Sang Zhi wants to take away his ankle but he doesn’t let go. She is speechless: “Are you dog? Why do you always bite people?”

“Hu Li Jing (Foxy man).” Duan Jia Xu pauses and says lazily: “loves to eat people.”


“Come here.” Duan Jia Xu loosens up his tie and lowers his body. He says frankly: “It’s been a long time since I ate you.”

Then he just kisses her.

He even still wears his suit, his tie is loosen up. He looks affectionate.

His tongue starts to probe hers and explores her teeth. He starts to sucks her tongue, yet because he is afraid to hurt her, he is careful to do it. He is gentle and patient.

Sang Zhi holds his tie.

Very quickly, Duan Jia Xu lets her go and looks at her eyes. He doesn’t do anything else. He suddenly smiles and bites her lips again: “Why do you draw me that way?”

“……..” At first Sang Zhi forgot about it, but hearing him mentioning it, she feels diffident and refutes: “Who said that I draw you?”

Sang Zhi adds unhappily: “Also what do you mean by draw you that way? It’s not bad right? I even get third place.”

“It’s quite great, yet you expose my chest to others.” Duan Jia Xu starts to unbutton his shirt and does it slowly: “It’s inappropriate.”


It’s just a small part of his chest.

Duan Jia Xu smiles and takes off his top: “Do you want to draw me again?”

“…….” Sang Zhi is unable to withstand his seduction, she immediately starts to tidy up his top, then she says: “Have you prepared my birthday present?”


“What is it?”

Duan Jia Xu leans back on the sofa and once again pulls open his shirt. He shows his collar bone and sturdy muscle.

Then she hears him says “The honor of looking at this.”



At first Duan Jia Xu wanted to go back to his bedroom to change his clothes yet Sang Zhi doesn’t let him to go change. She just helps him to button up his shirt and tidies up his tie.

She makes him wear like a great leader.

The suit doesn’t feel comfortable for him, yet Duan Jia Xu doesn’t say anything, he just lets her be. He holds up his face and sees her holding her glass of water. Then he suddenly says: “Xiao Peng You, tomorrow you would be twenty years old.”

Sang Zhi looks at him. “What is your birthday wish?”

“The earth would be peaceful.”

“Oh.” Duan Jia Xu says sloppily, his tone is repeating hers. “Want to get marriage certificate with Duan Ge Ge.”

“………” Sang Zhi: “I’m still young.”

“Then let’s have an engagement first. Then when you are graduate, we could register our marriage.” Duan Jia Xu is completely shameless, he plays with her fingers. “It’s great to settle down, you could help me to be assured that I’ll get married before thirty years old.”

Sang Zhi blinks and laughs: “You are so miserable oh.”

Duan Jia Xu: “Am I?”

“You would get married when you are thirty, how old you will be when you have a kid?”

“Don’t I have one now?” Duan Jia Xu kisses her hand and says gently: “I have no energy to cherish another one.”

“I’m still a kid?” Sang Zhi couldn’t help to speak up, she is unhappy: “Few days ago I went to work as tutor, I even was called by Xiao Peng You (little kid) as A Yi (Aunt).”

“You went to have a part-time job again?” Duan Jia Xu says calmly, “Don’t do that anymore, now it’s time for you to study well. If you are free, you could find your friends and hang out.”

She is not having any economic difficulties, Duan Jia Xu doesn’t hope that she would have the same experiences as him when he was in the college.

Sang Zhi doesn’t say anything.

“In the future, you could pursue your Master degree or start working.” Duan Jia Xu looks at her eyes. “I would support you.”

Sang Zhi doesn’t know what to say, she just nods.

After a while, Duan Jia Xu changes the topic of conversation: “You are unhappy because other people call you A Yi ah?”

He watches her for two seconds and laughs. He lowers his head and kisses her again. “Xiao Peng You, do you remember? When you were young, you always made me angry that way?”


After Sang Zhi’s birthday, Duan Jia Xu returns back to Nan Wu. Unexpectedly his action on the stage was photoed and posted on the school online forum.

Fortunately, the pixel is not too high and it’s too far so it’s unclear.

She knows this from Ning Wei.

Ning Wei said to her that she feels that the man looks like Duan Jia Xu.

When Sang Zhi is free, she takes a look at it and reads the comments.

[Which company he is from? I prepare to send my CV there.]

[Hey, it’s useless for you to send the CV. Do you know that he said ‘my girlfriend is taking photos of em?’]

[He is so handsome, supposedly his woman is a celestial being.]

[Honestly I think his action is too cheesy but after see the video… indeed he is attractive? I feel so jealous, I’m crying for my singleness.]

After that, Ning Wei asks: “Is he your Duan Ge Ge?”

Sang Zhi coughs and says ambiguously: “They look alike.”

Ning Wei doesn’t expose Sang Zhi, she just sighs: “Ay, if my boyfriend is giving that speech, supposedly he couldn’t locate me. He could watch what you were doing, it’s awesome.”

“………..” Sang Zhi suddenly remembers: “I just remember that time I even changed my seat.”

Ning Wei is silent for few seconds: “Ay.”

Sang Zhi: “….. What?”

“I want to change my boyfriend.”


The day of ‘sweeping the graves’, Duan Jia Xu comes over from Nan Wu. He books the morning flight. These period of time, the game studio starts to work on a project so he is so busy and couldn’t stay long at Na Wu.

They both get on the car and go to outskirt graveyard.

Duan Jia Xu holds Sang Zhi’s hand and takes her to a grave.

Then Duan Jia Xu kneels down and tidies up the grave. Then he places the things he brought for sacrifice to his mother. He smiles and says: “Ma.”

Sang Zhi also kneels down with him and greets: “A Yi.”

On the photo, Xu Ruo Shu is very young, she has an outstanding appearance. She looks like someone gentles. She is smiling so happily. The time she passed away, she was just forty years old.

Duan Jia Xu introduces her: “This is Sang Zhi.”

He adds: “My Xi Fur (Wife), your Er Xi (daughter-in-law).”

It’s been so many years so Duan Jia Xu is so calm. He tells her about his current situation.

Sang Zhi just listens quietly.

Duan Jia Xu is so calm and gentle, he retells everything that happened to him this year. After a while, he stands up: “Then I’ll leave now. I need to rush to take the plane again.”

“Right, I forget to tell you. Pa’s condition is not very good. I don’t know whether he could wake up or not.” Duan Jia Xu says: “In the future I’ll settle down at Nan Wu, when I have time I’ll come over to visit you.”

Duan Jia Xu looks at Sang Zhi: “Let’s go.”

Sang Zhi pursues her lips and says to Xu Ru Shu: “A Yi, don’t worry. I would take a good care of Jia Xu Ge.” She is serious: “I’ll be good toward him.”

“……..” Duan Jia Xu laughs, “What are you doing?”

Sang Zhi seems to be dissatisfied by his laughter, Sang Zhi glances at him, yet she continues her words: “Then A Yi, we will leave first. When I have time, I would definitely come over to visit you.”

They both exit the graveyard.

Duan Jia Xu feels her words are interested: “Why do I feel that you make me be your Xi Fur (Wife)?”

Sang Zhi is very dejected: “I am not saying wrongly.”

“Em.” Duan Jia Xu strokes Sang Zhi’s head and says: “You would be good toward me.”

Sang Zhi takes out her phone out of her pocket and looks at the time. “Let’s go, let’s have a quick lunch first then you should go to the airport, if not you’ll be late.”

Duan Jia Xu: “Em.”

They both get on the car. Duan Jia Xu drives the car back to the city, then they go to the SCBD area to find a restaurant to eat.

After the lunch at 05:39 p.m., Duan Jia Xu pays the bill and they take the escalator to go downstair.

When they are on the second floor, Sang Zhi hears a fighting noise. She looks over and sees a middle-aged woman with a kid is fighting with a young woman.

Sang Zhi is startled.

Because that young woman is Jiang Ying.

In a next moment, that middle-aged woman pulls Jiang Ying’s hair and screams: “Your Pa is a b*st*rd, how could your family spend money to find a lawyer to reduce his sentence? Are you guys humans?”

“How is that related to me! Jiang Ying screams back, she tries to pull back her hair: “Get lost! It’s not my business! Are you crazy!”

After a while, security guards come over to stop them from fighting each other.

Sang Zhi looks at Duan Jia Xu.

He remains calm and doesn’t show any expression. He looks like he doesn’t hear anything.

The time they want to take the escalator down, Jiang Ying seems to notice them. She is a bit dull. Her eyes are red and teary.

Yet this time she doesn’t act like she usually does. She doesn’t come toward them to find trouble with Duan Jia Xu. She just lowers her head down and acts so petty.

Sang Zhi doesn’t continue to watch her, she just holds Duan Jia Xu’s hand and goes downstair. She hesitates and asks: “Her Papa is dead right?”

Duan Jia Xu considers: “Maybe her stepfather.”

“Oh.” Sang Zhi says: “Previously I heard from Shi Xiao Yu, Jiang Ying’s family seems to have troubles. Yet I also don’t ask anything about it.”

Duan Jia Xu just says: “Em.”

Looking at how Jiang Ying be treated before, Sang Zhi also could imagine how previously Duan Jia Xu be treated.

But he didn’t act like Jiang Ying, he didn’t say anything or vent his anger that way. He just let it go.

He also feels that it’s unrelated to him. He also feels powerless.

Sang Zhi recalls the time Duan Jia Xu was sick for appendicitis. He was in a great pain, yet he didn’t plan to go to the hospital. He didn’t care about his health condition. Was it because of he wants to die?

She feels sad, she suddenly stops walking and hugs him.

Duan Jia Xu is startled: “What happened?”

“I am serious for what I said in front of A Yi.” Sang Zhi buries her face on his chest. She says in low spirit: “I would be good toward you.”

Duan Jia Xu feels that her serious appearance is stupid yet cute. He smiles.

“Em, I know.”

Jiang Ying seems to be experienced the same thing he experiences.

She gets the retribution of what she did to Duan Jia Xu in the past.

It seems like a circle.

So finally he passes this hard time.

Your life would turn to be better.


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