Secretly, Secretly; But Unable to Hide it (偷偷藏不住) by Zhu Yi (竹已)~ Chapter 82

Everyone feels that this thing is too early to be discussed, it’s not till the part to consider a lot of factors.

Sang Zhi is still young.

They haven’t been together for so long.

There might be a change in the future. Maybe in years later, it wouldn’t be the same situation. Perhaps halfway, something will happen.

Maybe it would create a situation where they would break up.

But after Duan Jia Xu be with Sang Zhi, he never considers that they would break up.

Since the first day of their relationship, he keeps on considering their future.

Duan Jia Xu recalls that day Sang Zhi laid down on his back, her tears poured down. She said to him: “Why I’m still a nineteen years old? Why couldn’t I be twenty nine years old. I don’t want to be so young.”

That should be that time.

She should know that her parents disapprove their relationship.

Yet she should be worried that it would affect his mood if he knows about it so she just keeps it to herself. Let herself be sad alone. Let herself try hard to change her parents’ mind.

The day she knows that Sang Rong said something to him, she comforted him and she should feel helpless yet she said to him to not be unhappy.

Because of that matter, she kept on let her imagination run away with one. She worried that he would give up because of this so she came back to Yi He in advance. At the airport, she cried and revealed her secret. She told everything to him.

She hopes that he wouldn’t feel inferior because of it.

She hopes that he could know how great he is, that he is worthy for her long years of crush.

What a great Sang Zhi.

For everything she does, first she would consider him.

No matter it is in the past or no, though she is younger than him, though it’s him that should take care of her, yet she always be his armor and protects him behind her body.

Duan Jia Xu doesn’t hope that Sang Zhi would feel dilemmatic between him and her parents.

He wants to solve this matter.

No matter it’s sooner or later.

The atmosphere in the narrow living room turns silence.

Duan Jia Xu lowers his head and mocks himself silently. He feels it’s hard t bear, he starts to think what else he could do if the parents aren’t agreeing.

This seems to be his everything.

Sang Rong considers for a while and finally speaks up: “The apartment would be only on Zhi Zhi’s name?”

It breaks the silence, Duan Jia Xu releases his breath and nods.


Sang Yan is stupefied by Duan Jia Xu’s words. He tries to straighten up the way of thinking. He speaks: “Wait for a while, Pa, are you trying to bully him?”

“……” Li Ping suddenly slaps his thigh: “What are you talking about!”

“Could we be a bit reasonable?” Sang Yan says, “It can’t be true, how could I never see it. Are you guys people that hold the belief of ‘well-matched in social and economic status for marriage? Ma, the time you introduced me to a woman, how could you not mind about their economic status, you said that you would accept anyone as long as it’s a woman?”

Li Ping is so furious: “With your criteria, how could you be compared to your Mei?”


“If a woman would want to be with you, I would burn incense and pray to Buddha.”

Sang Yan controls himself and says: “Let me ask you guys something. If Xiao Gui be with Fu Er Dai (a children of entrepreneurs who became wealthy under Deng Xiao Ping’s economic reforms in the 1980s), she could have everything, the man’s family is rich. You guys would be willing to accept happily?”

Li Ping: “It’s not about that.”

“That what is it about?” Sang Yan looks at Duan Jia Xu and clicks his tongue: “Ma, take a careful look. Duan Jia Xu, indeed is a bit lacking than me. But he is a great man.”

Li Ping couldn’t bear her son’s attitude anymore: “The one is lacking than you, is a man?”

Sang Yan uses to her attitude: “Okay, forget it. But he is great toward the Xiao Gui. He is not poor. It’s nothing really bad about him.”

Li Ping looks at Sang Rong and tries to calm her anger. She sighs: “Let Pa finishes his words.”

Sang Rong looks at Duan Jia Xu and continues to ask: “When are you planning to buy an apartment?”

Duan Jia Xu: “I estimate it this year.”

“You and Zhi Zhi are fixed yet,” Sang Rong says: “You let the apartment to be in her name?”

Duan Jia Xu nods: “Em.”

Sang Rong: “You aren’t afraid to break up with her after two years?”

Sang Yan frowns: “Pa, your words are not good, how could you curse them to break up?”

Li Ping couldn’t restrain her emotion, she grabs his arm and drags him to the room.

“Get inside the room!”

Only two of them are in the living room, the atmosphere turns much deserted.

Duan Jia Xu doesn’t be affected by it. He just smiles faintly and answers Sang Rong: “It’s no use for me to keep the apartment, it’s better to leave it to her.”

“Son, no one invests that much money just for dating.” Sang Rong laughs: “If anyone knows about this, their first respond would be you are blackmailed by our family.”

Duan Jia Xu is startled and doesn’t wait till he answers, Sang Rong just says: “It’s better for the apartment to be on your name. It’s your own hard work to buy it. I and Zhi Zhi’s Mama actually don’t mind about those things.


“Actually Zhi Zhi has mentioned your guys’ relationship to me and her Mama several times.” Sang Rong says gently. He pats Duan Jia Xu’s shoulder. “Mainly if we just listen to her words, we are not confident enough. Last time I said those words to you because I want to see how would you respond.

Duan Jia Xu: “I understand.”

“Previously I said that I mind about your family’s condition, it’s because I’m afraid that Zhi Zhi would be hurt because of that. But if you could protect her well, then it’s enough.” Sang Rong says: “I also know that I and Zhi Zhi’s Mama’s attitude affect your guys’ feeling. I think as parents we should cause trouble a bit in early dating.”

Duan Jia Xu turns a bit relieved, yet he doesn’t know what to say at this moment.

“Because of saying those words to you, I keep on feeling sorry. For this matter, I know you also don’t feel well. I also know that the mistake is not on you. It’s unrelated to you. You don’t need to place yourself in the lowest level just because of that matter.”

Duan Jia Xu looks at Sang Rong, his throat is so dry.

He always knows that Sang Rong and Li Ping are good people. Duan Jia Xu understands their thought, he knows that they should be worried for Sang Zhi, what they do are for Sang Zhi’s good.

So he would do it better.

He thought that if this time it couldn’t work, he would try again by coming again. He would try hard to make them ignore his father and doesn’t mind about that matter.

Yet he never expected that Sang Rong would respond in positive way, he even comforts him.

Conversely Sang Rong doesn’t mind.

“Look at how A Yan responds, he also feels that we are bullying you.” Sang Rong laughs and says: “I’m also not a stubborn person. I feel enough from what you said tonight. I also believe that you could everything that you said to me today.”


“In the future, if you are free, come over and have a meal with us.”


Duan Jia Xu stays there for a while.

Li Ping and Sang Yan come out of the bedroom. They don’t mention about what happened before. The conversation is going to different direction. It’s getting late so when it’s 09:00 p.m. Sang Yan takes initiative to go back home.

Duan Jia Xu and Sang Yan go out of Sang family apartment.

Sang Yan walks in front and he asks casually: “What did my Pa say to you?”

Duan Jia Xu smiles, he looks happy: “He doesn’t disapprove anymore.”

“What happened to you?” Sang Yan sounds like he is sneering at Duan Jia Xu: “How could you say those words? Why we as male adult live strong-willed?


“A man should have his own assets.” Sang Yan says lazily, “Though it’s not important whose name would be for the apartment. But if you keep on doing that, in the future your life would be extremely tragic. That Xiao Gui would be pampered by you.”

Duan Jia Xu is still smiling: “It’s okay.”

Sang Yan looks at him. “Also.”


“Don’t monopolize everything.” Sang Yan says: “You are unreasonable.”


Sang Yan has his car today so he sends Duan Jia Xu back home.

When he is home, Duan Jia Xu gives Sang Zhi a video call. It’s answered quickly. He could see her small and delicate face. Her eyes are glistening and watching him.

Duan Jia Xu smiles: “You are not at the dorm?”

Sang Zhi finds a glass and leans the phone on the glass. She continues to chew on her potato chips: “Em, I come to stay over at your place. Tomorrow I don’t have class in the morning. I could wake up late.”

Duan Jia Xu also has nothing to do so he just lays down on the sofa and watches her chewing her potato chips.

Looking at his appearance, Sang Zhi blinks: “Today you seem to be so happy.”

Duan Jia Xu lowers his head and laughs: “I’m quite happy.”

“What happened?” Sang Zhi watches him for a while and straightens her lips. Then she smiles, she suddenly follows him to laugh. “What happened to you, why are you laughing foolishly?”

“Today I went to meet your Pa Ma.” Duan Jia Xu doesn’t hide it from her. “They don’t disapprove anymore.”

Hearing his words, the potato chips on her hold fall down: “Ah? They don’t’ disapprove? What did you say to them?”

He continues to laugh and doesn’t answer.

Sang zhi asks again: “Really?”

Though Duan Jia Xu doesn’t answer, Sang Zhi starts to laugh and smile. She clearly is infected by his mood. Her worry is finally solved.

She picks up her phone and sticks her face close to the screen. She watches him.

“Duan Jia Xu.”


She smiles happily: “I’m so happy ah.”

It’s not only because her parents finally approve their relationship.

But also because he gets his confirmation so she is happy.

Duan Jia Xu looks at her smile and dimple, he suddenly wants to bite and chew it. He strokes her face on the screen. His face looks affectionate: “Em, I’m also very happy.”

“Duan Jia Xu.” Sang Zhi calls after him again.


“For this matter, at this moment, it’s finally solved.” Sang Zhi sits up and says seriously: “In the future, no one has right to feel you are not great because of this.”


She mumbles: “You are the greatest one.”

That night, Duan Jia Xu is comforted by several three different people in different way. His heartache seems to disappear without any trace.

Perhaps in the past he was unlucky.

Yet at this moment.

Duan Jia Xu feels that he is so lucky.


After Duan Jia Xu moves back to Nan Wu, Sang Zhi’s life seems to remain the same.

Everyday she goes to attend the class and joins competitions or activities. When she is free, she would go to is house to stay. Though she has less time to contact with him yet she also has more things to do.

When she has time, Sang Zhi would come to the city hospital to look at Duan Zhi Cheng’s condition.

She doesn’t mention it to Duan Jia Xu, yet she feels that with him not being here, she could help him to do things too. Then if something happens, she could inform him about it.

The day passes just like that.

In the beginning fo March, the list of the winners for the competition, which Sang Zhi attended last semester is out. As she expects, she has successfully gets a position in that list. Though she gets the third place, yet it makes her feel surprised.

The time she is about to inform Duan Jia Xu about it, she notices a person, who never messages her, messages something to her.

Few days ago, she met Shi Xiao Yu in the supermarket.

She comes to talk to Sang Zhi about Jiang Ying’s matter.

Shi Xiao Yu: [I want to talk something to you.]

Sang Zhi: [What?]

Shi Xiao Yu: [Previously you said something to me, I started to observe Jiang Ying’s condition. I also frankly asked her about several questions. She didn’t hide it for me and be frank to me.]

Shi Xiao Yu: [I feel that she is okay. She is mentally healthy, it’s just she is a bit immoderate and stubborn. She doesn’t listen well to others when she encounters your boyfriend. If not, she is normal. I don’t know whether it’s classified that she has mental problem or not.]

Sang Zhi is somewhat at loss: [Why are you suddenly telling me this?]

Shi Xiao Yu: [I just want to help her to say something. Actually she is not a bad person, it’s just because of her Papa’s death. It creates a trauma in her heart. Yet she wouldn’t hurt anyone.]

Shi Xiao Yu: [Recently her family also experiences problem, she should figure things around. In the future, supposedly she wouldn’t go and find your boyfriend again. You also don’t need to be worried. I also want to apologize to you for what I did in the past. I’m sorry.]

Sang Zhi doesn’t know what should she say to her.

For Jiang Ying’s matter, she actually is not the person concerned. She feels that she has now way to reply. But when she recalls Jiang Ying’s words and actions. She feels in bad mood.

Sang Zhi looks at the screen and then replies: “Em.”


The ceremony of the award giving for the competition is held at Yi He University. It would be a day before Sang Zhi’s birthday.

The people attend the ceremony are students, tutors and several entrepreneurs.

At first Sang Zhi was expectant for it, but at this time she isn’t that interested.

Because she is stood up by Duan Jia Xu.

Since Duan Jia Xu is back to Nan Wu, every day she starts to tear her calendar and starts to expect her birthday to come soon. The time she notices the day would come soon, she makes a plan to want to go somewhere with Duan Jia Xu.

At last Duan Jia Xu sends her a message: “For the time being I have a business to do. I couldn’t go home. Next time I’ll compensate you.”

Sang Zhi actually is very unhappy, yet she knows that he is busy so she doesn’t lose her temper at him.

She could only be sulky and sullen.

This time she is sitting down inside the assembly hall, she notices Duan Jia Xu’s message. She doesn’t reply it in an instant. She just takes a look at the time and wants to reply him after ten minutes.

She wants to let him feel for a while.

Feel the feeling of be treated coldly.

The award ceremony doesn’t start immediately, there are several tutors start to talk. The time they are talking about the art, Sang Zhi just listens for a while and feels bored quickly. She doesn’t continue to listen to it.

Her phone lights up again, she looks at the screen and feels that ten minutes are still not enough.

She doesn’t reply his message.

After a while.

Duan Jia Xu sends a message once again: [Why you don’t reply to my message?]

Sang Zhi starts to be moved, the time she is considering whether to reply or not. Her classmate beside her pokes her shoulder and says excitedly: “Sang Zhi, look at the one o’clock direction. He is is too handsome right.”

“…….” Sang Zhi immediately raises her head.

In an instant, she notices that man is the one who is sending her message. The man, who said to her that he couldn’t come because he is so busy.

Duan Jia Xu is wearing a formal suit today. He looks educated and fine. He is tall and his appearance is too seductive. His suit somehow makes him even sexier.

Sang Zhi rarely sees him to be that handsome, her gaze is on his body and she seems couldn’t look at other things. She even forgets that she was sulky. She has an impulse that she wants to run toward him and hug him.

It’s been a month.

Her classmate is still talking: “Ay, which company he is? It seems that he is from a game company….”

Duan Jia Xu is standing there and looks around. In few seconds, he could locate Sang Zhi’s position. He raises his eyebrow, he is smiling and starts to walk toward her.

Sang Zhi is sitting on the aisle part.

The classmate: “Ay, is he walking toward us…. Wow….. it seems to be true… He is walking this way….”

The time Duan Jia Xu is standing beside Sang Zhi, her classmate immediately shuts up.

Duan Jia Xu bends his body and uses his two fingers to knock on Sang Zhi’s phone. He lifts up his eyes and says: “Tong Xue (Friend), could you take a look at your phone for a while?”


“Your boyfriend seems to be looking for you.”

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