Secretly, Secretly; But Unable to Hide it (偷偷藏不住) by Zhu Yi (竹已)~ Chapter 59

“It’s clear that you are……”Sang Zhi is speechless, she also stands up. “I’m just sitting down here peacefully. How could you move your face closer to me.”

Duan Jia Xu lowers his head and holds her hand. He smiles. “I do that in purpose.”

His hand is hot, he holds her hand not too tight nor too lose. Sometimes he would knead her fingers.

Sang Zhi looks at him.

Duan Jia Xu takes her out of the coffee shop. “I want to seize to opportunity to let you kiss me for a while.”

Sang Zhi straightens her lips and just says: “Oh.”

“How long have you been waiting for me? You even finish a large cup of coffee?”

“Not too long. I played game before so I forgot about the time. How did you know that I was there?”

Duan Jia Xu points out at the glass window of the coffee shop. “I could see you. Next time if you come over, I just go directly to my office to find me. Or perhaps you could call me to come down and pick you up.”

Sang Zhi nods.

They both enters a nearby barbecue restaurant and finds table to sit.

Duan Jia Xu takes a hot towel to wipe his hands, then helps to pour her a glass of water. “You still have one more exam, when would it be?”

Sang Zhi: “Thursday.”

“You still have three days?”

“Em.” Sang Zhi rubs here eyes: “So I plan to go back to the dorm after this to sleep. These days I kept on staying till late. I’m so sleepy.”

Duan Jia Xu laughs: “Then why did you drink coffee before?”

Sang Zhi says seriously: “Because I want to sleep so I drink coffee. After I drink coffee, I feel sleepy.”

“What kind of body do you have?” Duan Jia Xu laughs: “So would you stay up late again for these three days?”

“No.” Sang Zhi says, “I think three days would be enough to revise for the last examination.”

“How was your interview?”

“It’s okay. I feel I could pass it. That company seems to be lacking of people.” Sang Zhi scratches her head and asks: “Jia Xu Ge, does my Ge look for you?”

Hearing this Duan Jia Xu looks at his phone. “No, why?”


This seems to get serious.

Yet when she thinks of how he ruthlessly blacklists her, Sang Zhi doesn’t want to reconcile with him. She drinks her water and says expressionlessly: “We are fighting.”

“What happened?”

“He doesn’t agree that I’m not going home for summer holiday, then he also said…..” Sang Zhi hesitates. “Oh right, have you talked to my Ge about our relationship?”

“Not yet.” Duan Jia Xu says calmly: “At first I planned to take a leave for a week to find you when you come back to Nan Wu for summer holiday. I planned to find your Ge to talk about it.”


“Now I would wait for you till the National Day holiday, both of us would go home together. It’s much more sincere right?” Duan Jia Xu smiles: “I personally come over to let him beat me.”

“…..” Sang Zhi says, “He shouldn’t beat you.”

“It’s okay.” Duan Jia Xu doesn’t mind about it, he is happy. “I’m quite willing to let him beat me.”


After the lunch, they both stroll around to aid digestion. Then Sang Zhi takes the subway back to the university. The time she arrives at the dorm, it’s already 02:00 p.m.

There’s only Ning Wei inside the room.

Sang Zhi looks at how clean Wang Ruo Lan and Yu Xin’s place and asks: “They both already left?”

“Em.” Ning Wei is packing up her things. “They don’t have anymore test. They just packed up and left. Yu Xin is going home, Ruo Lan and her boyfriend seem to travel somewhere for few days.”

Her roommates have no more examination, only Sang Zhi has examination for her optional course.

Sang Zhi: “Where would you go?”

“I’m renting a place outside with my boyfriend.” Ning Wei says. “I plan to stay together with him. This summer holiday I wouldn’t stay here.”

Sang Zhi: “Ah.” She is a bit reluctant to part with her: “I thought we would be living here together.”

“You could go and find your Duan Ge Ge ah.” Ning Wei lifts her head and smiles at her. “Tell me how do you feel about the dating? Oh no, I mean being together with your silent crush?”

“It’s okay.” Sang Zhi thinks about it and hesitates. “I don’t feel any different.”


Just like before, there’s seem to be no different…. Except being together that day.” Sang Zhi suddenly raises up her left hand and touches her lips. “Just that time for a while, but there’s no big difference.”

“Wow.” Ning Wei is surprised: “You guys have kissed?”


“The day you start to be together, you guys already kissed each other?” Ning Wei is excited, “The one that took initiative should be your Duan Ge Ge right? Oh great. An older guy is much more great.”

“But I feel that I didn’t respond correctly.” Sang Zhi says in a low voice, “Let me ask you. You and your boyfriend, the time you guys act intimately, would you be nervous?”

“At first I was a bit nervous,” Ning Wei said: “But I feel that he should be more nervous than me. My boyfriend is much more shy. After a month of being together, he even didn’t dare to hold my hand. I was so impatient that time.”


“Oh, I think I was so nervous too because of his influence.” Ning Wei rolls her eyes, “But now he is much more bold and unrestrained. He even dares to fart in front of me and frame me.”

Sang Zhi laughs: “Ah?”

Ning Wei talks about the main topic again. “So would you be nervous?”

“Em.” Sang Zhi says, “Then I would like that I am unhappy…. I’m afraid that he would misunderstand me. So I confessed to him that I really like him.”

“Ah? He should misunderstand you.”

“But I hadn’t confessed t him.” Sang Zhi says, “I think if I didn’t tell him in person, he wouldn’t know.”

“Oh?” Ning Wei blinks. “But you could just interact well with him, no need to be too cautious like you need to explain every actions. You’ll get too tired if you keep on doing that.”


“Are you used to be nervous because in the past you were afraid that he would know that you like him? But now you guys are together right, it’s normal for you to express your liking toward him. It’s a reasonable thing to do.” Ning Wei says. “I say it because I think you also are not really sensitive person.”

Sang Zhi says: “Are you complimenting or speaking sarcastically about me?”

“Just want to let you be more happier in dating. You have been liking him for so long and you guys are together right now. If it’s me, I definitely would pester him everyday, I would hug and kiss him everyday.” Ning Wei pulls up her suitcase and wipes her sweat. “The matter of love, it’s not about words. You could not, like he kissed you for a while and you expressed that you were not happy. Then you told him that you like him. Isn’t it like you slap him on the face and give him a candy?”

Sang Zhi is silent for a few seconds and nods.

“Moreover you said that at first he thought of you as his Mei Mei right? Then you guys also had age difference. You could think from his perspective, supposedly he would adapt to you. You feel that it is too fast, you feel that you don’t like it. He probably wouldn’t force you.” Ning Wei says, “It’s just my thinking, my boyfriend is too easily embarrassed. It makes me want to tease him, I feel like I’m a rogue.”


“No need to think too much,” Ning Wei comes over and stroke Sang Zhi’s head, “Perhaps you could think that this man supposedly would be the one that accompanies you forever.”

Sang Zhi is startled: “Then?”

“Then?” Ning Wei laughs, “If you could do anything you want, you could endure it, if you couldn’t endure it then just leave. If not how could you be cautious this lifetime.”


After Ning Wei leaves, Sang Zhi changes her clothes. Then she gets on her bed. The room is narrow so she could hear the noise from the air-conditioner very clear.

She hugs her pillow and thinks about Ning Wei’s words seriously.

It seems right.

Under Sang Yan’s guidance, indeed she is not easily embarrassed person. But how could in front of Duan Jia Xu, she seems to be so easily embarrassed.

She admits that herself is much more shameless than Sang Yan, yet she seems to be less shameless than Duan Jia Xu.

Sang Yan is shameless but he is nothing than Duan Jia Xu.

She thinks of it then she suddenly concludes.

Duan Jia Xu & Sang Zhi > Sang Yan.


Today the time she accidentally kissed her face, she felt a bit embarrassed and at a complete loss. But now when she thinks about it, she feels that she should say: “I kissed you, so what?”

It sounds cocky.


In the future, she would do that.

It’s just dating.

It’s! Just! Dating!

How should she be so nervous?

Since she was young, she always dares to fight with male students. She even didn’t cry when her teeth is knocked off. She isn’t someone that easily scared. Sang Yan even ever called her a little evil tyrant.

It’s just dating, it’s just kiss.

Why should she be afraid?

Sang Zhi turns even more energetic that she loses her sleepiness completely. She sits up and opens up the chat with Duan Jia Xu. She types. [Duan Jia Xu.]

After several minutes, he replies: [What happened?]

Sang Zhi: [ Do you want to play ‘escaping from hidden room’?]

Duan Jia Xu: [ I want ah.]

Duan Jia Xu: [ What the theme do you want to play?]

Sang Zhi: [Near our university, there’s new one. The theme is ‘students’ gathering’, it’s not scary, it has positive evaluation.]

Duan Jia Xu: [ Okay.]

Duan Jia Xu: [ Didn’t you say that you want to sleep? Sleep for a while. The time I am nearby, I’ll give you a call.]


After deciding about it, Sang Zhi makes a plan. She starts to loosen up and falls asleep.

She sleeps soundly.

She is waken up by Duan Jia Xu’s call. She feels a bit headache, she answers in daze.

Duan Jia Xu: “You are still sleeping?”

She couldn’t respond for a moment, she is sluggish: “Your call wake me up, is because for asking whether I’m sleeping or not?”

“……..” Duan Jia Xu laughs: “What are you talking about?”

It’s a three seconds silent.

Sang Zhi just gradually regains herself: “Oh.”

“You remember about it?”

“Are you downstair?”


She turns silence for few seconds again.

Sang Zhi sits up and couldn’t help but to find fault with him. “Why didn’t you wake me up earlier?”

“I’m not rushing it.” Duan Jia Xu says lazily: “Now you could get off the bed and freshen up. Then change your clothes and shoes. Then you could go out.”

“……..” Sang Zhi opens up her mosquito net and gets off her bed, “Then wait for me for a while, bye.”

She goes to the bathroom quickly to brush her teeth and uses a cold water to wash her face. Then she goes to change her clothes.

She wears a simple make up, she then ties her hair into a ponytail. She picks up her handbag and takes her phone and keys to leave.

She uses twenty minutes for all of that.

She is afraid that Duan Jia Xu feels impatient so she runs downstair. The time she is out, she could notice him immediately. He is standing under the tree. She walks faster and hops in front of him.

Hearing noises, Duan Jia Xu lifts up his eyes.

Sang Zhi seems to be unable to stop, Sang Zhi knocks against his embrace.

He takes a step back, he is afraid that she would fall down so he holds her back. Duan Jia Xu is startled and couldn’t help but to smile: “Today you are so happy?”

Sang Zhi lifts her head and looks at his face, she doesn’t take a step back. She just smiles: “Em.”

Duan Jia Xu also smiles happily.

Sang Zhi looks at him for several seconds and takes two steps back. She takes out her phone blinks. “I thought you would complain to me that I’m too slow.”

“It’s okay.” Duan Jia Xu reminds her: “Next time don’t run, you could fall down.”

Sang Zhi nods: “Before I slept, I’ve booked the ticket. I already said to the boss that we would be there around 08:00 p.m., it’ll probably take around one hour so till 09:00 p.m. Is it okay? We could have dinner first then go there.”

Duan Jia Xu holds her hand and says: “Okay.”

After a while.

Sang Zhi suddenly calls after him. “Duan Jia Xu.”

“What is it?”

“No.” Sang Zhi consults: “In the future I’ll call after you this way?”

“Em, you could call after me whatever you like.” Duan Jia Xu massage her fingers like he is playing with mud. He says: “I just think when would you change.”

“I think if I keep on calling you Ge, I feel like I’m dating a senior.”


“Moreover you always tell me what to do, it feels even more obvious.”

Duan Jia Xu raises his eyebrow: “Do I?’

Sang Zhi: “You don’t feel it? In the past I kept talking to you about it. How could you like to control kid, why shouldn’t you have one by giving birth to it.”

Duan Jia Xu laughs: “Okay, let’s wait till you are graduated.”

“……” Sang Zhi just responds, she thinks that his words are related to her. ” The time I graduate by the university, you would be thirty years old.”

At first he thought that she would be angry but hearing how calm she is, he feels surprised.


Sang Zhi adds seriously: “The son that comes in very late age?”

“Who did talk to you about it?” Duan Jia Xu finds this is hilarious: “Maybe when it’s fifty years old that you could say that way.”


They go to the nearby restaurant to have dinner.

Then Sang Zhi takes Duan Jia Xu to the ‘secret room’ game.

They both go to the cashier to find the boss, Sang Zhi passes the tickets on her phone. They listen to the boss about the rules and concepts of the game. Then the boss gives them to name tag and asks them to wear it.

Sang Zhi looks at her name tag then Duan Jia Xu’s tag.

She laughs: “Your name is Xiao Hong, grade 2.1. Elementary student.”

Duan Jia Xu laughs with her. “Em.”

Sang Zhi: “Xiao Hong.”

Duan Jia Xu answers with a good mood. “Here.”

The boss: “……….”

Dating is really foul.

The boss takes them to one of the room and says: “The time limit is an hour. There is a timer on the side. If you want prolong the time, you could use the microphone to tell me.”

Sang Zhi nods.

Then the boss closes and locks the door.

Sang Zhi isn’t really interested in playing this. This time she doesn’t know where to start, she just starts to flip everything around. Inside the room, there’s a small classroom. On the blackboard on the classroom, there’s a sentence. On the teacher’s desk, there’s a thing too.

There’s also a long table with papers. On the top, there’s a calendar year and student’s photo.

Sang Zhi takes out a box from the long table, it is locked. She looks at the blackboard. There are three questions on the board. She guesses: “The questions on the board, should be related to this one right?”

Duan Jia Xu glances at the box and takes it. He stirs up the code. He could open it quickly.

Inside the box there are two flashlights.

Sang Zhi couldn’t understand it: “What are these for?”

Duan Jia Xu accompanies her to play and suggests: “Maybe for turning off the light, maybe there’s any scribble around. We need to use this flashlight to see it.”

“Oh.” Sang Zhi feels that she is so stupid, so she just does what he tells her. She switches off the light: “Where should we take a look at.”

Duan Jia Xu gives a flashlight to her: “Just try everywhere.”

This room is sealed so when the light is off, there is no ray of light. Sang Zhi turns on the flashlight, it has purple color. She looks at the ground, wall, and ceiling.

But she couldn’t find anything.

Sang Zhi just simply kneels down. Just in time she finds that a table near the wall. There’s a writing. Sang Zhi is confused for her own sight, she takes a look at it for few seconds and says happily: “There’s a math question right here.”

Duan Jia Xu is standing near the blackboard, hearing her words, he comes closer to her. He also kneels down. “I saw a paper, this should be the fourth question. “

They both are kneeling closer to each other.

In the dark and narrow room, the atmosphere turns romantic. He is talking normally but he moves closer to her ear.

Sang Zhi looks at him and raises her flashlight toward her face. With this minimal lighting, she could see his bridge of nose clearly and his smile.

She thinks about Ning Wei’s words to do anything she wants, she suddenly stands up.

Duan Jia Xu stands up too. “Let’s look for other questions?”

Sang Zhi is silent for a while and answers evasively: “I am afraid that you would be nervous, so I want to warn you about something.”

Duan Jia Xu: “Em?”

“Today I plan to kiss with you .”

Duan Jia Xu is surprised and looks at her.

“You should get ready.”



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